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The End

2009-11-05T14:55:00.001+08:00

"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction."

I guess it's time to switch to a diary.

HAHAHA

2009-11-04T14:35:00.004+08:00

I will post back my previous post on MONDAY! :D:D:D

I'm sick of editing the powerpoint slides and videos! It is the 123456789 times alr! );
And, I've always timed myself at home, but its always 5 mins wad! How come when it comes to the real thing, it became 5.20s?! I need to cut my script!

AND GARY CHEW.
MET YOU FINALLY TODAY HUH!

2 years 10 month

2009-11-01T23:21:00.002+08:00

2 years 10 months had since past.
The hurt is too much to bear.
I don't wanna a repeat of that.
Give me enough strength and determination.
I'll walk through it. Really.
I need a new purpose in life.

Master Plan

2009-10-31T15:16:00.003+08:00

I hope i still have my voice for OP after a round of intense shoutings today. =/

Anyway, I have big and bigger plans for the holiday. (:
9 days more to the end of OP/ I&R/ PW! :D:D:D

Oh well

2009-10-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

Taiwan serial dramas are such a bore, idk why my mum likes them so much! There's this new taiwan serial drama on channel 8 and I happen to pass by the living room so I sat down and have a look. There's this woman who got raped and was pregnant, but the man had totally no recollection of the incident because he's drunk. So for that 15 mins, they began quarrelling and then finally the man remembered what happen but accused her of going after her money. -.- I wasted 15 mins of my time. If it was mediacorp show, the woman would just go straight to the police station! What is this man. No wonder taiwan shows can reach up to a thousand episodes!

Anyway, channel 8 was showing a variety show about PSLE maths just now. I really agree that this year's PSLE maths questions are hard, but since it's over, then there's really no use crying over spilled milk. I mean it is really necessary that some questions must be challenging, if not everyone will be scoring A*? Children are getting smarter nowadays and grade inflation is not an uncommon sight already. I could still remember that for my year, PSLE Science paper was a killer. If my memory doesn't fail me, it goes like this: Why can't the number of people on the upperdeck of a double-decker bus be bigger than the number of people on the lowerdeck? I think it should be chickenfeet for the P6 now. But back then, it's hard man! =O

I can understand that parents are worried that their children grades would be affected. But come on, since most of the candidates could not answer the question, it won't affect much right??? If you get the answer, it's a bonus, but if you don't, then it's alright! But what really irritate me from this fiasco was the attitude of parents. I really can't stand their "My daughter got 97 marks for her school exam and now she can't even finish the paper" attitude.

The answer is: So what? You mean your daughter won't make mistakes, won't get freaked out during exams? Every year it's like that. I could still remember that for last year's PSLE maths, there's a couple of parents writing in to newpapers and citing the above reason as one of the reason to prove the questions are very challenging. Oh my gawwwd. If their children got demoralised by a PSLE exam, then how is he/she going to face setbacks in life and also future exams like O level etc?

Parents are overly protective towards their children nowadays! I wonder if the future generation will have the tenacity as what our forefathers had. Also, I think that parents nowadays emphasize too much on academic. What about character development? Life values? I don't see why this is less important. And I feel so sorry for those children who has got "no-life" and only knew how to "mug, mug and mug". Some things can't be learnt through textbooks and so what if they became professors 20 years down the road? Is getting rich all that you want to achieve?

Okay. This post feels so GP-ish! HAHA.
Alright. Nuff said! (:

HAHA

2009-10-29T20:36:00.002+08:00

I was telling my mother how nice if I could marry a ultra damm rich girl next time. Then I won't have to work so hard next time. My mother actually agree with me! HAHAHA. Then she say if the girl I'm marrying to has no siblings even better, then her parent's fortune wil be inherited to her next time! I think my mother very cuteee la! :D:D:D

Went to school at 1 pm today because Jin Ming asked me to play table tennis with him in school. I didn't know tkd start at 2.45, I thought 2.15! So i agree. When I was on the bus, then he msg me and told me there's no table! Oh my gawwwd. Being a little bit crazy and not knowing what to do (yes, my PW title!) to pass my time in school, I actually decided to go to East Coast and have a run instead. Haha. I hate running you know, but I just dunno why I decided to do that. Maybe I'm trying to make use of the good geographical location of my school.

Okay, so I headed to East Coast Park and just when I'm on the overhead bridge, Pu yuan called and ask me go back school cuz she's there alr. But I didn't, because I've decided to go running! So I started running, from the overhead bridge and followed this year's cross country's route. Walao. I think I'm really old alr. Damm tiring la! Can't believe I've actually gotten a Gold for nafa test this year -.- Like that how to pass NAFA next year! I dun want to go into army earlier than other ppl leh! ););); My timing was exactly 15 mins. I think I've ran for 2.4km? I don't know how long's the route. Better not shorter than 2.4km! =/

Headed back to school after that, chit-chated with Pu Yuan and Jin Ming for a while b4 tkd started. Today's training was tired. Especially the round robin robin part. Exactly like Sparex camp! Non-contact sparing also will be tired! captain's ball for PT after that. Yasmin the auntie was like angry when I stole her ball. HAHA. Damm funny. AND YES. GARY CHEW!!!! WHY DID YOU TELL YASMIN ABOUT NICHOLAS AND EEVIAN! OH MY GAWWWWD.

Awkward Expressions

2009-10-28T15:01:00.004+08:00

Second round of Oral presentation. Quite well done i think. (:
My presentation's alright, but I really couldn't answer during the Q&A session. =/
2 more practice sessions to go before the real thing. Jiayou, jiayou!
Things to complete: Memorising my speech, PPT slide amendments, Video, brochures, I&R and possibly poster. And yes, everyone's speeches are awesome, so there's no need for amendments. ;D

Had been feeling rather down these few weeks for i-don't-know-wad reason(s). Not really because of PW; PW only angered me. Had been thinking a lot, even though sometimes I don't even know what I'm thinking about. Sometimes I shouldn't dwell too much on some things I guess. Yes, perhaps I should just take things as it is and enjoy what I have presently. I want to have some personal fulfillment. I want to enjoy being alone.

More than often, it is easier said than done.

Project Work

2009-10-27T23:42:00.003+08:00

It's really amazing to see a lot of people's MSN nick that has got to do with PW.
And you know what, ITS MY TURN TO RANT NOW (:

I really got enough. Enough of doing crap shit. Why is it always me who does the most things? Because I'm smarter? I ain't the smartest, nor one of the smartest in the group. Why can't everyone put in some effort for OP? I really tried to cover the fact that the group's not working well by doing tons of things for WR. But this time round it's different! The examiner's going to see, they are going to judge on teamwork as well and I really can't help if you don't want to memorise your script or write your script properly! What you want me to do?

And then no one cares about the powerpoint slide. You could jolly do your part well and pass on the powerpoint slides to me and I could help you animate it. But someone in my group passed me just 3 slides- the first slide has only the title of the project, the second is a picture of 911 attack and the third a picture of a lightbulb. you want to start and end your presentation so sloppish and simple? Even though the best presentation made use of pictures only, but that's not even fantastic.

I nearly fainted when my group started the mock OP today. Anyway, someone in my group actually told me to change the background of my ppt to a new one because she thinks that it is too dark. I like black and grey cannot meh? -.- but anyway, i've changed the background to something even darker. BLACK. HAHAHA. But the main slides are white and black. LOL.

Alright. I really have to go prepare my speech alr. Tmr's my group's 2nd mock OP!

Excited

2009-10-26T21:23:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha. An exciting day because I've managed to access my old hard disk from my new computer. Can't do that previously and i'm so sad because all my songs and pictures are in the old harddisk! Managed to gain access through editing the security of the file in safe mode. ;D;D;D happpppy! Now i could retrieve my 500 songs! ;D

Plus what i've did previously to microsoft office and adobe photoshop, COOL! ;D

Anyway, did some changes to the look of my account and it is like damm nice now! ;D See below kay! ;D Looks more like a mac now compared to the previous modification I've made. And, and, I've changed the cursor as well to something cuter. LOL.

haha. kay. i spend too much time on such things alr. needa do Op speech. haven't even started! ):

Education

2009-10-25T21:36:00.001+08:00

I was kaypoing in STOMP today as usual when I saw this poor student who got expelled from ajc and was asking for suggestions on what to do next. I continued reading and then something shocked me. Oh my gawd, Anderson JC expelled 52 J1s this year???!!! Being a little busybody by nature, I read on and found that to remain in AJ, they need 2H2 passes or something more, which I've forgotten. Walao. In VJ, 2 Us will earn you a conditional promotion plus R papers. What a big difference! Now I've got an extra reason to love VJ more. LOL. Someone in AJ should just write in to the press and complain. I would have done it if I'm in AJ!

Anyway, there was this University Panel discussion yesterday in school. I ponned the second part of the discussion because I have no plans to go abroad for my university studies. Haha. Some big shot figure from NUS, NTU and SMU came down and talk to us. Seriously, now I know why the speaker's tone has got to be interesting and varied. Look at SMU's speaker! Even though he didn't cover a lot of information, he've got most of my attention! Hands down NUS and NTU! But I think the worst was NTU. That guy spoke so softly that I just couldn't take it. So i ended up playing my friend's ipod touch. xD

Reviewed my university choice again after the talk. Seriously, now I've got no idea what courses to choose from! I don't like anything that's got to do with business. Engineering wasn't very interesting to me. That small little thing that amused me is perhaps science, but I'm not quite sure if I'm into that. I was hoping I could get some motivation to study, but it seems like I can't! Nevermind, I'll just have to do well in A level first. (:

Harmoc + PW meeting tomorrow. OP session with external vendors + PW meeting + Taekwondo on Tuesday. Meeting with Judah + PW meeting on Wednesday. Busy, busy, BUSY! *Scratch Head. HAHA. Sometimes I wish we could have more time to prepare for OP, but then sometimes i wish that it could be over and done with quickly. What a delimma! 2 more weeks. Just 2 MORE! ;D (power to infinity). After that I'll start studying already. HAHA. Maybe I'll go ask Mrs Chua if I could take the R paper for econs and at the same time not taking my marks into consideration! =/ I really wanna know if I'm suitable for H2 econs anot, even though I've passed it. And hope she could at least answer some of my queries (if i happen to have) because it will be very bad for me to disturb those who got S and U. But come to think of it, E is equivalently bad. HAHA.

Kay. Got to do my powerpoint slides for tmr! ;D

HAHAHA

2009-10-23T17:33:00.002+08:00

I GOT BACK MY RESULT SLIP TODAY.
I PASSED EVERYTHING FOR MY JC1 ACADEMIC YEAR.
I DIDN'T FAIL MY ECONOMICS.
I DON'T KNOW WHY I PASSED ECONOMICS.
I DON'T REALLY CARE, BECAUSE
I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE R PAPER ANYMORE.

OH MY GAWD.

CONGRATULATIONS ROBIN. (:

In school now.

2009-10-22T11:18:00.003+08:00

It feels wierd to feel so slack now.
Especially when PW lecture starts at 12.10pm and I'm stuck here in the school library not knowing what to do. Oh shit. 'knowing what to do' is my PW's title. No wonder it sounds so familiar. HAHA. k random.

Woke up at the usual time today and slack for an hr plus because harmoc starts at 8am. i think its really amazing that section 3 is able to follow the pace of the rest of the sections because our SLs are always absent for i-don't-know-what reasons. Lol. It just shows that everyone in section 3 is talented can! xD

Oh Well, I've got nothing to blog already. Still got half-an-hour to go before lecture starts! Hmm, maybe I should go to the canteen now and have my lunch.. LOL. Still got taekwondo after lecture!

Aha! Happy birthday 17th birthday Koh Weiting!:D Hope you will become less blur. HAHA.

Anyway! Before I go to the canteen and makan, best of luck to those taking their results this week huh! Po-Hsun just called me yesterday and he got promoted! yeah! So, good luck everyone! Even stupid people like me can get promoted, so i'm sure everyone else could!

Thats all! :D

WR

2009-10-21T18:23:00.003+08:00

Flipping through the completed Written Report this morning, I heaved a sign of relief because after all that fiasco, the completed report lies heavily on my palm now. Not to booast, but I've really put in a lot of effort on it. I don't know how the whole class knew about me being especially particular about the design and format, but there's always a reason why I'm doing it. But nice joke of me being so perfectionist today huh! Damm funny :D

But frankly speaking, I really felt uneasy when I'm handing in the WR. Like, is it good enough? I've done so much that I'm so sick of it but before handing it in, I'm not sure if I've done enough. The number of pages only meant some degree of assurance.

At the end of the day, it's A level. It's bullshit if i said I wouldn't yearn for an A. But it matters more because of the effort I've put in, in relative. 2 more weeks. OP and I&R left. I swore I will go celebrate after my OP. =/

Anyway, class lunch today at pasta mania. OMG. I'm broke this week. I've spend $50 already! My weekly pocket money is like $20 =x But nice outing, because it's been like ages since we had one. LOL. And, why do people like to spread rumours about me!!??? xD Walao. There's no Mrs Pua in the school can!

And, happy birthday Sarah.

HAHA. kk. That's all! ;D

To the Max

2009-10-20T23:51:00.003+08:00

Sunday was out with C13 to celebrate koh's birthday. HAHA. I can't believe that Yee Ru reached earlier than me can. We even went to check the time we exit the station using the top-up machine la! Then Si Ying came and we went cheers shopping because the rest of late! ;D

Walked to Amara hotel and sat directly opposite val and van which is so damm awkward. That's why I kept going out taking food! And, since when Smart casual became a collar shirt and long pants. I'm the only guy wearing t-shirt can. LOL. Ya. And now I've got a new scandal with Eevian. xD LOL. Anyway, pooled at Bugis and bused home with Yee Ru after that.

Woke up late on Monday. Haha. I woke up at 11.15pm and after bathing, it was 11.30pm. Waited for bus 72 for very long, so I reached wei Chong's house around 12.30pm! HAHAHA. Chit-chatting session and then we watched a movie which has a very lousy ending. Captain's ball was interrupted by a resident who had nothing better to do but to complain (typical singaporean! :D) After that we went clubhouse to chit chat for a while. (: AND, my spectacles broke for the nth time, but it's okay because I've got a super-ultra strong super glue at home that could glue them back within a second. Pro right!! ;D

Tuesday morning was spoilt by the startling fact that my group's WR was heavily penalised by Judah when she said ours was okay the other time. -.- The best part was: We can't find her the WHOLE day so we can't even clarify our doubts. She didn't even want to pick up her mobile! Nevermind. We decided to do without her anyway. Added all the necessary stuffs and I've got exactly 60 pages for my WR, of which 30 pages was the appendix. HAHA. Damm cool. :D Didn't managed to complete the WR in school and so we can't print the WR outside. Gordon and Jasmine's printing and hope we could be able to bind them in the bookshop tomorrow! Final submission tmr! Hope ours still okay! :D

That's all!
(P.S. My mouth ulcer hurts ):)

认真

2009-10-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

人，到了一定年龄的时候就会开始执着，执着于一些事情；即使知道自己并没有理由这样做。
执着一段日子之后就会开始自我安慰。尽力、奋力地找出能够安慰自己的东西；即使知道事实并非如此。
自我安慰的同时，我们也会找出缺点，想尽办法去除或改善它；即使知道有没有缺点并不重要。

《害怕》林俊杰
“我不再去执着我是谁
或是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的”

《不，完美》李玖哲
"完美並不美我們多虛偽
你讓我的好變成一種罪
完美並不美當你愛了誰
我的完美也只是不完美”

闲暇之余，听一听以前喜欢的歌曲也还蛮是滋味的。因为每个歌曲都会和某一段时间有关系，听一听，仿佛又回到过去了。怀念没有错，只是思念会造成困扰。连牛顿都会说事物都想维持现状，为什么人类就不能呢？

人生没有什么好羡慕不羡慕的。没有的比较、因为每个人的经历都不同。只要知道自己追求的是什么，自己的目标是什么，就够了。

但你知道吗；即使知道这点，也未必能做得到。

这就是人类。

Pissed off

2009-10-17T18:41:00.003+08:00

My computer was spoilt a few weeks ago and my father wanted to just buy a replacement CPU from courts. But my cousin suggested buying spare parts and just transfer the harddrive from the old one to the new one. After that, everything's fixed but I need an activation code to activate XP. Called him, he gave me a few codes from the internet (-.-), expected me to try it and hope it works. But it DON'T. Then he said I need to get an XP OS disk and installed it into the new harddisk I've bought. Fine. I've borrowed one, but he refused to come my house to help me install. Okay, nvm. I followed the instructions from the internet and finished the installations in about a few hours. I should really praise myself because despite me knowing nuts about computer stuffs, i still managed to install it.

The best part is, After installation, I still need an activation code because XP requires an activation code for all new installation of XP. WTF. Then, the keyboard and mouse hung on me for no reasons, and I've searched the internet and it said because of dunno what shit because I don't understand computer language.

If he doesn't have the intention of helping us install the computer because we knew he doesn't have any obligations to do so, then don't give suggestions to us to buy a new fix-in computer. I could jolly spent a few hundreds more on a pre-installed computer and use it without so much hassle.

What the Fuck. And if you realise I don't normally scold swear words, you can imagine how pissed off I am. The conclusion? Don't ever rely on people.

And if you are wondering why I could still blog with the computer spoilt, I'm using my sister laptop now.

I hate it.

2009-10-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

I really have to thank god that my WR is finally on the right track after so many problems with it. And of course to be able to accomplish that, I have to exchange with a few hours of sleep. Sometimes I really hate to see people in the group not contributing as much, but life's unfair; and I have to learn to live with it. Final submission on the 21st, which is 6 days away. Minus away weekends and Monday which I won't be in school, I'm left with Tuesday to settle loose ends because Mrs Judah can only return us our final draft on Tuesday. So too bad. ):

Promos results are back except econs. I really get affected when teachers expressed disappointment at my results you know. Like my Physics teacher said "Robin, I've got a shocked when i saw your results". It feels terrible and I don't know how to reply them. Sometimes i feel guilty, like why am I not doing well? And, Mrs Chuah in class didn't even went through the answer for promos, but instead talked about how wise it will be for us to drop to H1 econs. Actually, I really got enticed by her. She was so convincing! Haha! But I think I'll see my R-paper results first before I made my decision.

My promos scores are slightly better then mid-years except GP (which remains the same standard and for econs, I think I'm getting worser results). The rest of the subjects I've improved from either E to D or from S to E. So not too bad, at least there's still some, although minute improvements. And for Physics, the teacher who marked my paper calculated my marks wrongly. Oh My gawd. He gave me 22 marks lesser for my paper 2. -.- I think he failed maths. HAHA!

Midnight time! and I'm still doing WR. It's going to be over soon and I'm really glad. After WR, there's OP and I&R left. 9th Novemeber is the day. I'm waiting for it to come. (:

This week

2009-10-11T01:02:00.001+08:00

Busy week! (:

Monday's last paper, Tuesday was spent on interviewing SMRT, Wednesday met Siying together with Pu Yuan and Gary at Bedok, Thursday was back in school for harmoc rehearsal and Friday was in school for JC 2 graduation ceremony as well as the open house. (: Busy + tired. How many months since I had that kind of life? Haha.

Shall not talk about Monday since I totally hate that day. =/

Tuesday
SMRT interview with PW mates. Hahhaha. Was actually in the same bus with Gordon, but he's at the upper deck and I'm at the lower deck of the bus! We ran for the entrance after we alighted because we are late and it's not nice to be late especially when we are interviewing other ppl. Went in after Jasmine and Vickky reached and they saw us running but didn't stopped us. Lol. That SMRT personnel was actually quite friendly. Haha. He allowed us to flim the whole interview and throughout the whole interview, Gordon's the one asking. My camera battery went flat after 5 mins -.- and Jasmine's about 5 mins before the interview ended. So lucky lucky. :D Got quite a lot of information for WR and OP! And we are asking the school if we can do a pilot test anot. hehe. Went to the mac just outside City Hall Mrt to discuss PW (but we chit-chatted more xD) like gossiping about teachers! ;D;D;D Bused home with Gordon after that! :)

Wednesday
Happy birthday Si Ying! :D. Haha. Went to Bedok to meet Si ying with Pu Yuan and Gary and have Lunch. Gary treated us sugarcane drink! Hahaha. I hate sugarcane, but I still finished it! :D:D:D TJ damm suay, late to finish promos and summore they test much more chapters than us. Went to the library to mug with Si Ying and I really got study can, for my R-papers at least! Heh, Chit-chatted quite a bit and after that trained home with Si Ying.(:

Thursday
Harmoc practice for Open House. Dragged myself out of the house only at 2.55pm when I had to reach at 3.30pm. Started panicking when the bus didn't stop by the bus stop at 3pm because the journey to vj's 30 mins at least. As expected, was late for 15 mins, but I didn't run to school cause Yan Lin's who on the same bus as me was late as well. Haha! Was quite amused by the fact that I could still play 'bamboo dance' after sooo long, but memorising is still a little problem. ;D After rehearsal went back home, so quite a boring day!

Friday
JC2 farewell assembly in the morning! I think the farewell ceremony for JC2 were very entertaining and cool! With all the funny speeches, videos and staff band! :D I think really sad to see my seniors leaving soon because they are all very nice ppl and they've see us through for competitions or performances for the past year. And time passes so fast yeah? Soon, it'll be my turn. OH NO. Lunch at roxy square with the usual zhonghua ppl and then shopping at popular! haha. We've got lotta of time to spare before going back for open house! Went back school soon after, walk around, drank free milo (YES), catch Symphonic band performance and stone at tkd booth for a while. REALLY BORING OPEN HOUSE. Asked Si Ying's junior who's coming to help me get a goodie bag because apparently the school forbids all victorians to kope for themselves. With the help of superultra good Si Ying, Chin How really help me take one. Thanks eh! (:

Went off with Jun Liang for second round walkabout before going to LT4 for last min practice. Performaned in the PT and then went off again with Jun Liang to see Wushu and then mass dance. My second mass dance of the day! :D:D:D Jun Liang didn't want to dance at first but I finally managed to persuade Jun liang to dance together! (: Went back booth for booth duties after that and got so bored that i started EATING!Must thank Jun Liang to drop by later also, if not no one to accompany and talk to :D Packed up at 7.30pm because no one's coming already, played table tennis for a while with jin Meng and stopped because we were caught by the PE teacher. Haha! Then my third MASS DANCE with tkd peeps and guo Pei! :D:D:D

Saturday
P.S. The pastor didn't came today. :D
And I've chanced upon some 2009 PSLE Maths paper on the web! Quite challenging for P6 students leh! I only remember drawing models back then! Now they know things like simultaneous, fractions and ratios?! But lucky them, they can use calculators now! Where got such things back then! ;D

Q.Jim bought some chocolates and gave half of it to Ken. Ken bought some sweets and gave half of it to Jim. Jim ate 12 sweets and Ken ate 18 chocolates. The ratio of Jim's sweets to chocolates became 1:7 and the ratio of Ken's sweets to chocolates became 1:4. How many sweets did Ken buy?" ANS: 68

Q. Sally baked some cookies to sell. 3/4 of them were chocolate cookies and the remaining were almond cookies. After she sold 5/6 of chocolate cookies and 210 almond cookies, she had 1/5 of the cookies left. How many cookies did she sell? ANS: 1200

Q. Mei and Lin were in a bicycle race. Mei was travelling at a constant speed of 20km/hr and they both did not change their speed. When Lin completed half the race, Mei was 3.5km ahead. Mei completed the race at 10.45am. What time did Lin complete the race? ANS: 11.06

Frankly speaking, I got stucked at the first question la! So malu can, JC1 already still dunno how do p6 question. LOL. But later I realised because of carless mistake so I didn't got the correct answer. Haha! The next 2 question quite easy, but too hard for P6!

That's it! Nitez! :D

The Last Lap

2009-10-04T16:45:00.007+08:00

The final paper.
The last of the last, after which everything's finalised, everything's over.
Over are the days of mid-night oil and stomach cramps?
Then project work will come looking for me, first will be written report and then OP and then finally I&R. After which, lessons will resume for another month and then Re-assessment paper 2 months after.

Physics tomorrow. Somehow, knowing it will be the last paper, I've been too slack for the past days. Guilty, a little. Haha. Hope everything's going to be fine despite my slackness. =/ Thinking about how I've got to spend my time the next few weeks on PW really kills my post-promos mood. Like how I've got to rewrite the freaking WR after I got home after Physics exam and then I've got to start on the video-making. Then the next or following day will be going down to SMRT HQ to interview the person-in-charge. (But we haven't prepare the questions and all the equipments needed -.-) Then, it's all about reorganising WR again. All those done before 21st. Superman yea? (insert swear words xD)

I think I'll be grabbing people for group study during the hols, cause I've decided not to retain for a year. I wanna be one of the youngest in the cohort. (grins). Better turn up when i msg you all! (:(:(:

I don't want to concede defeat when I haven't lost.
I don't want to disappoint those who held expectations of me.
I want to tell myself that I could do it, even though it may not be near.
I will do my best.

Jiayous to all taking their promos now! :D
I wanna tell you all how much I love you.
But somehow, I feel that I've tried too hard. I needa some too.

Oh my god

2009-10-03T18:06:00.002+08:00

Oh my God.
There's this well-dressed pastor from the church near my house giving out bread and pamphlets just now. And the moment he knew I ain't a christian, he started preaching to me about Christianity which left me not knowing what to do for 10 mins, but to stare at him blankly. Then he talked about how Jesus had changed him and then he asked me about my school and coincidentally, he's from vjc as well. Oh my gawd. Then he talked about how he accepted and believed Jesus when he's in JC2.

Oh no. The best part was: he said he's coming back next saturday to talk to me more about Christianity. I lied to him I've got CCA, but he said he will still come, if I'm not at home, it's okay. I think i needa find an excuse not to stay at home on Saturday. If he could convince me to convert to Christianity, then my aunt maggie is really a failure because she's being doing that for years and I'm still ain't a Christian.

Haha. (:

Promos

2009-09-30T18:09:00.002+08:00

Three down, two more to go. (:
The girls in my class who take literature have got their last paper on Friday. What an envy. Haha. Chem was pretty alright, but I think I could at least get an E? No time to finish MCQ and paper 2! ): So disappointed! At least it came to a point that I do know how to do, but I've got no time to finish. Aiyoo.

Maths on Friday. Hope I could pass.
:D

Promos

2009-09-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

2 down, 3 more to go. (:
I think my chances of getting retain is pretty high, especially since I screwed up GP on Friday. Economics today was bad. I've actually spotted that 2 questions before the exam, but I didn't memorise the answers because one came out during last year's promos and for the other question, I really have no idea how to do. Haha. So I have like no choice to do the other 2 questions.

"Whatever you get at the end doesn't matter if you did your best (:" - Mrs Chua.
The quote Mrs Chua wrote on the small card which she gave to the whole class. Some cool encouragements. :D I think I most probably might see her so much often for econs remedial after promos. Saw Mrs Judah after exam today and chatted with her for a while. Haha. Mrs JJ was so freaked out when I told her I probably need to see the principal after the promos. Damm funny. heh. She said she will give GP remedial for me after promos as well. Lol. So now, I've booked with remedials for 2 subjects. Lol.

Alright. Chemistry on Wednesday. I'm banging on chem seriously. And Chem is the subject that I really wanna do very well. So hopefully I could! Hehe. I've got a feeling I might not do very well in Maths and Physics, so yes, I'm left with Chem! (:

Back to mugging! :D

Helpless

2009-09-26T11:13:00.003+08:00

I feel just like a helpless person stranded in the middle of the road.
And suddenly it rained and I search frantically for the umbrella, but to no avail.
I got drenched and drops of rain dripped down my cheek.
Not knowing what to do, i stood there.

One down, 4 more to go.
Like, literally down.

Untitled

2009-09-22T01:55:00.002+08:00

Something I thought I should have at least knew.
That little bit of sympathy is what I need. Take it as a recognition of my slightest effort?
I know, because I don't really matter to you.

Yellow belt gotten on Saturday's grading. (:
Finally, another colour added to the gi. Haha. Saturday's grading was alright i think. But there's some blank moment here and there because I suddenly thought of yellow tip pattern and blue-green pattern. Some of yellow's moves are really the same as those. LOL. Got persuaded by pu yuan after grading to drink bubble tea at serangoon. I was contemplating to take the circle line home (because I've never rode on circle line before) or go back to serangoon. But I still went serangoon with jessica and pu yuan.

Took the circle line to lorong chuan and then back to serangoon after that because I wanna try out the circle line (: Damm cool, the MRT platform is so short. heh. Trained back to Boon keng after that.

3 more days to promos.
Jiayou, jiayou, jiayou! :D

There's a reason for everything.
to dream, to wish, to ponder for something to happen.
I'm waiting.

Reality Struck

2009-09-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

What happen to you robin?
I thought you were rather strong in Chemistry?
If you need any help, you can always look for me.

Thank you for that expectation and encouragement, because I need that motivation to move on.
It's always like that. I shouldn't have overestimated myself in the first place.

I try. I really will try.

Promos

2009-09-16T20:07:00.002+08:00

Since when have i had a decent sleep? I'm really tired and I think only god's know what I'm thinking about.

I don't wanna end up failing any one of my subject. Just a pass. A pass will do. I really don't wish to take 4 re-assessment paper like in January and if I taking 4 of them, the Principal's so going look for me first and perhaps will try to persuade me to drop one subject to H1. Mum and Dad's okay with me being retained, cuz i always told them them I might get retained. I'm alright with retaining as well, but something just keep on telling me to get promoted.

Mrs Judah and Mrs Koh gave the class some encouragements which are sort of funny. Haha. Mrs Judah with that motivating speech and her 'we will do our best' handsign and Mrs Koh's theory of spending time having remedial with her during the holidays instead of shopping. Great to have some motivations. (:

I week more. I'm not sure if I could braved through it successfully.

The final Piece

2009-09-13T15:48:00.008+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like I'm not the lead character in my life anymore.

More then often, we overlooked minor details in life. Minor, but yet important. When we visited some places that brought back tons of memories; that neighbourhood, that bus stop, or perhaps that void deck and I'll recover some lost waves of memories. The realisation that time don't return for us; that thought provoking feeling of guiltiness, or regrets.

Maybe we were too inobservant. Maybe, it's just taking things for granted. But had we really appreciate those who really care and those who were always around? Too much indulgence in our comfort-zone or simply too heart wrenching to care?

How does it feels to be supporting cast? I wonder, to take the attention away from ourselves and cast it on others. That attention, brought back nothing, but hurt. Maybe its just that we were too blinded with our preconceived ideas of the other person, that we couldn't bring ourselves to care as much.

The final piece. That final episode.

What If I Need You.

2009-09-11T22:40:00.003+08:00

There's a reason why people got so attracted to korean dramas.
At least I am. To those serial drama revolving around family issues. Sometimes you could laugh your head off and sometimes you'll cry your hearts out. Haha. Mum's watching rental korean series these few days and sometimes I feel guilty being carried away by it as well. (:

Not sure if I'm prductive this week. But I have to, because promo's in 2 weeks time. These few days have been going out for group study with C13 and today with Kester and Guo Pei. Not too bad, at least I've got the determination to at least settle down and study. :D

I needa some brain juice to keep me going. (:

That Overdue Post

2009-09-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

I think pictures speak a thousand words.

Life has got to be better.
That overdue post; that sole witness to this monotonous and hectic life.
Sometimes I don't even know what to expect of myself.
Because i get too confused, too bewildered. There's alot of thoughts swirling round and round my head. Too much. A little too much.
I'm not sure if life's always the opposite of what I think it was.

Because I knew truly who I am.
I will never achieve anything great in my life
Sometimes I refuse to believe that
there are people out there who really loves me.
I always try to be optimistic because i knew
when I'm happy, my worries and fears will be erased.
I always believe that
I'm useless and I'm a failure.
I would be lying to myself if i said that
I've got the mental strengths to move on.
I'm tired, but...
no one is there to catch me when I fall.
I hope it's the opposite when i said that.

I hope it's the opposite when i said that.
no one is there to catch me when I fall.
I'm tired, but...
I've got the mental strengths to move on.
I would be lying to myself if i said that
I'm useless and I'm a failure.
I always believe that
when I'm happy, my worries and fears will be erased.
I always try to be optimistic because i knew
there are people out there who really loves me.
Sometimes I refuse to believe that
I will never achieve anything great in my life
Because I knew truly who I am.

I'm not sure if life's always the opposite of what I think it was.
Because i get too confused, too bewildered. There's alot of thoughts swirling round and round my head. Too much. A little too much.
Sometimes I don't even know what to expect of myself.
That overdue post; that sole witness to this monotonous and hectic life.
Life has got to be better.

600th

2009-09-02T22:56:00.001+08:00

The 600th post.
Hmm. I'm very tired now and I'll blog on Saturday when I've got the time; and when I've got the photos. :D

Facing the obstacles, i fear.

Is That Alright?

2009-09-01T16:15:00.003+08:00

Performance: Around the World with VJC Harmonica Band
Date: 2nd September 2009, Wednesday
Time: 7.15PM | 8.15PM
Venue: Esplande, The Concourse
Price: Free Admission

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I always felt is was a great privilege. Really.
Cuz i know no matter whether is it happiness or tears, we'll come for each other no matter where we are. Those difficult days, those laughters and those patience. Its those little things that matter, that add up in the end.

You really meant a lot and we still love u as much as before.
looking back on the laughs would make me cry.

Happy Teachers' Day + Happy Advanced Birthday Pu Yuan + C13 outing

2009-08-31T21:18:00.003+08:00

The 3rd time watching VJC dance club performing '9 crimes'.
That anguish, falling in love with each other; even though they are attached.
That self-denial, self-loathing, betrayal.
That suppression, for fear of hurting their current partners.
That break-off, because they still love each other.
It's the emotions that got me carried away.
Suddenly, I realise dance could get me thinking, at least.

Somehow, the song without the choreographing seemed so wierd ):
But its an awesome song...

Happy Teacher's Day (:
Morining breakfast with CT. Couldn't find them at first and found them after pushing here and there. Imagine. The whole j1 cts in the canteen? Haha. Soon after was teacher's day concert. Assemble outside the gym alley and then we practiced a little here and there and waited in the gym for harmoc's turn. Finally it's our turn and we got on the stage! Finally the curtain's open! But my mood's totally spoilt when my view was directly facing TYH. Like seriously! xD haha. But hey, thanks guys for all those cheers and shoutings huh! (: So we got started and it was so much better than all our rehearsals! Well done harmoc! Wow, this is like the 3rd harmoc performance this year. (:

Anyway, gary, pu yuan, fanghua, estee, jessica and me gathered in the concourse first before making our way together to zhss after the concert (: Hahaha. But I seriously think we reach the school too late! It's like most of the teachers have left school alr. That's so sad man. But at least we got to see Miss Lian and Mr Lee MC and some other familiar faces whom we didn't talk to before, but at least I remembered them. lol.

Went out with C13 to kovan for bowling! Actually the main purpose's to celebrate Pu Yuan's birthday. (since she wanna me to wish her during the actual day itself, i shalln't wish her now! =p) Got a little of draggy here and there, but it's okay since we still mananged to eat (yes ;D) and have bowling! I tyco tyco got 93 for first round can. Must go buy 4D. :D:D:D Hmm, it's been a long time since i last suan ppl and laughed so loudly huh? (:

Kay. I think i'm 'konking' out soon. I'm so tired after 2 rounds of bowling. ):
[No photos because blogger's not wanting me to post any pictures. Ewwww]

I went back, hoping to search for old memories.
That same old bus stop, that same gate, that same school.
That same canteen, that same parade square, that same corridor.
But where's the fond memories? Those memories we've shared?
That feeling will never be back. Never.

Life

2009-08-30T15:10:00.003+08:00

Poker Face, Hot n Cold, So What, Womaniser, Circus, I hate This Part, If you seek Amy, Homecoming, Fly on the wall, I want it all, see you again, nobody's perfect.

Hurt, When you believe, Love story, tears drop on my guitar, untitled, What if, how do you love someone, when you're gone, When You remember, Timeless, because of you, fall for you, someone's watching over me, a moment like this.

Without You, hero, my heart will go on, graduation, yesterday once more, memory, wait for you

They just set a different mood and feelings each time.

'Infatuation'

2009-08-28T21:31:00.004+08:00

Channel 8 was showing the current affairs show 'Frontline' just now. Today's story is about old singaporean men having an affair with china women. They interviewed a woman whose 60 year old husband has got an affair with a china prosititute and I really sympathise with her a lot. Then they also interviewed a man who was married and have children. They ask him, if you got a chance to have an affair, would you? He replied 'I don't know. These type of things are hard to say'. WTH. What a bastard.

Anyway, That's not the main topic my post today. :D

Harmoc's rehearsal today. Went for Physics plus first before going for the rehearsal. I really think our performance was damm cui. ): How? But we sounded quite good in the LT? I think we really got to work harder. ): [anyway, I've passed my auditions (:] Dance performances were damm nice! I like them a lot! Especially the first one. Though i can't really appreciate dances, but I can feel the provoking and anguish emotions that they are trying to present. Especially the last part when the female and male lead walk away from each other. So sad. A break-off? What an emotional piece of dance! I like it. (:

Spent ages with Jun, Pu yuan, fanghua and Yan Lin discussing what to do with 'pig'. Damm funny la. Should have just walk in front of her and say hi. xD And idk why suddenly I realise almost every guy has had got a crush. Some in Vj, some not! Alamak! I should seriously go look for a crush la! D: And, I'm 'promoted' to a matchmaker recently which is damm cool. Hahahahaha :D

Of course, there's a reason why I'm posting about Love in my post today :D

That adrenaline Rush

2009-08-26T14:41:00.004+08:00

That adrenaline Rush.
That heart pumping faster while I'm figuring out what to do.
That shaking fingers while I'm tying the string.

My results are within the 10% range, which is such a relief, because of that huge chunks of messy calculations. But I've got no time to check. I rush through all the limitations and I'm not sure if my graph and all those significant figures are correct anot. =/ But I'll just take it I've lost 5 marks. Need some motivation for main paper! Mr michael Lim's prescence sort of made the situation less tense. After all, it's that familiar figure that I've seen for the past year. If it was other teachers, maybe everything's a little different. Thanks a lot to those who have helped in some way and of course the encouragements! :D

One down, one more to go.
JIAYOU! :D

(edit: Self-study starts from 28 sep. The school is ...? Our first paper starts on 25th, 2nd on the 28th. Like that also consider self study break? -.-)

Time

2009-08-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

Time is like sand. When I first grabbed it, it seemed like I've conquered it, having it full in the heart of my palm. But after that, it struggles, loosen itself and I've lost quite a bit of it.

Now, I've lost so much that I don't think there's any left.

Physics SPA tmr, Chem SPA the day after. Mathematical Induction, Functions and Graphs tutorials. Chemical Bonding tutorial. Superposition tutorial. Maths remedial lessons on Thursday. Harmoc practices on Thursday. Rehearsal on Friday. (yes, I still need to practice harmoc for Thursday test) Everything's cramped into this week. How i wish I'm Batman and not Robin.

Save me. I'm in the water struggling.
Drowning, even though i know how to swim.

I'm tired. You know what, i don't really have time to practice harmoc. I give up. If they really think I'm not up to the standard, then exclude me out of esplanade performance. I don't really care. I just know I've tried my best for harmoc and that's it. I still have my studies to care about.

Anyway, GP remedial today was fun. Mrs Judah koped a few biscuits from the staff lounge and let us eat outside the staff room somemore. Hahaha. Quite fun. :D At least, there's still something that brightens up my day.

gtg! Physics SPA tmr. =/

VJC Harmonica Band

2009-08-24T21:22:00.006+08:00

"When I first take the offer for Esplanade performance, it never occur to me that it will take up so much time because the 10 songs that we are performing are relatively simple. Surprisingly, even though it's been one month, you all are still not up to the standard".

"I find that a lot of you all have not been taking harmoc seriously. There's a lot of excuses and people don't come in for practices on time. What is this? I'm very worried for the passionate people in harmoc, because I'm worried they will lose their enthusiasm when they see people around them not working hard to learn their songs..."

"The following people please stay back afterwards..."

"You people have been chosen to be weaker in harmoc. These few days I hope you could practice harder because Miss Ng will be testing you on Thursday. If we find that you are really weak in the songs, you will not be able to particpate in next's week esplanade performance..."

...
I'm one of the 15+ people being called out. Surprisingly, Caitlyn was being called out despite her being so pro in harmoc. It has never occurred to me that I will be 'treated like this', despite all my efforts to hold on to harmoc and to excel in it. I felt so hurt and insulted when I heard those few words, "you people are the weaker ones". It's just like picking those students with lousy grade and telling them, "hey, you are the stupid ones in the school. We are giving you a test this Thursday and if we found out that you are really stupid, you will be forced to quit school." And even if we are really 'stupid students', does not mean we are 'lazy'?

Mr Lee's speech before Wing Yee called the names out seemed to suggest that those who are weak aren't passionate, aren't enthusiastic enough. Have I not been one? I tried. Very hard. Simple things like going to harmoc on time, not skipping harmoc without valid reasons. I even skip tkd for harmoc when national day performance was nearing because I have to practice so that we perform well. Sectionals always on Thursday and it so happen to clash with tkd. And whenever I could go for sectionals, SLs aren't there to guide. Then what you want me to do? I've learn all those songs myself despite me being musically retarted, I listened to how people play their harmoc and learn and I do everything with the best of my capabilities to catch up.

Now with all that effort, I'm still considered not passionate, not enthu and poor in harmoc. I'm so hurt. Even though I'm not the only person, i do feel the pain. Trying to suggest we are lousy? Trying to tell us straight in the face that we ain' working hard enough. How can they do that? What mades them think that We (and I) haven't be working hard enough? A Test of our abilities? I'm so not going to pass because not one song I'm able to play confidently. I'm not angry because I can't go for esplanade performance. It's just a performance. I joined harmoc to learn new skills, to learn new musical instrument. I don't even care whether it will be written in my testimonial anot.

But now, it has come to a point that I'm so utterly disappointed with harmoc. I've given up on it already. It's like a few weeks beforehand I'm still thinking whether to drop harmoc and decided not to and now that feeling's back again. It's now not a matter whether i can handle harmoc's stress, but a matter if I'm able to have that passion to continue on.

What had just happened broke off that fragile string that held on dearly to my passion for harmoc.

A test for my harmoc skills is just too great an insult for anyone who loves his cca. Even though I often grumble and complain about harmoc, had i ever given it up? Had i not tried my best to learn new songs? Had I not love it as much as I've joined it in the beginning of the year?

The test on Thursday will not only seal my fate for esplanade performance, I think it's also time to decide if I'm really suitable for harmoc.

Aim

2009-08-23T17:51:00.002+08:00

AP/GP/Sigma/MOD/Recurrence/Induction.
I've finally conquered you today.
1/3 of Maths done. The other 1/3 of calculus and another 1/3 on Pure maths.
Cool. At least, some things are out of my load now.

Recently I've chanced upon a wordpress skin which is very cool! (anyway, I've decided not to move to wordpress cause they don't allow user to change layouts) But wordpress skins are in CSS while blogger's in HTML. I've changed everything to HTML except the part on 'post layout', cuz I've no idea how to convert. Damm sad. Now I can't use that skin alr. ):

Anywayyyy, I'm not gonna be (aiming to be) a psychologist anymore! :D
I wanna to be in life sciences related field next time! Biology's still my ultimate love; and I've checked the pre-requisites for life sciences course: H2 Passes in Biology, Chemistry and Maths/Physics. Those without H2 passes in Biology must read relevant bridging modules as entry requirements. SEE! No need to have H2 Biology. I'm so excited now! :D Anddddddddd, if i can't get into life sciences, there's always bioengineering: just H2 pass in Maths and Chem/physics.

New aim, new motivation! :D

Now my priority is to do well in SPA (yes, next week! ):), then promos first. No need to do very well in promos, as long as I get to keep my H2 and get promoted and I'm satisfied. There's just too little time to prepare for promos. About a month? Haha. Post-prelim timetable is super-duber cool. Lessons as usual for 1 week, then OP preparation for 2 weeks (no lessons? Hope so! :D) Then there's this 1 week break due to OP and then the last week will be following modified timetable (whereby lessons end at 2!) CCA wise, it's another thing. (:

2 more weeks to September Holiday (to be exact, 6 more school days to holidays). Must pray hard TYH would not catch my hair! Anyway, I intend to cut my hair during the hols, so no diff if he catch me now. HAHA. Mass hair-checking session last week. All the PE teachers were walking round and round checking our hair. Worst than zhonghua lor! Scare the hell out of me because TYH don't like my face, like seriously. But he didn't catch me despite walking past me a few times. Damm lucky. LOL.

Physics plus last Friday. Got paired up together with 2 other girls with Zhongji as our tutor. I think he is damm pro. After reading the question, he can tell us how to do immediately without doing any calculations. I think i really need some brushing up in my Physics. ): After the programme, Mr Lee saw me at the bus stop and began chatting with me about harmoc. Made me so nervous because the first thing he asked was "are you familiar with the songs?". HAHA. But he's friendly. :D

Kay. That's all. I realised this post is just too random. I was only writing about my new aim and the hair issue and harmoc popped up suddenly. Heh. Back to Maths! :D

I have no special talents: I don't have high IQ and I'm not intelligent.
I never did have a liking for scoccer and not so for computer games as well.
I speak and think just like any other normal beings.
What I have, is believe.
I can because I think I can.

Thank you for all that courage,
because what you all have given me,
is something much more than that.

Humiliation

2009-08-20T21:52:00.004+08:00

Your humiliation will only made me stronger.
I'll prove to you who will have the last laugh.

I really hope SPA will go away soon, because I can't get into study mood with all that worries about SPA. Haha. Econs test tmr! Not counted into the promos, but I'll still study! ;D And, I think I've sprained my right thigh because of blue-green pattern! But nvm, cause today's last training for tkd, so won't affect much! Harmoc's practices on sat again. A little sian-ed cuz other CCA has stopped and harmoc's not stopping, but increasing! Have to memorise scores by sat, but performing in black shirt/pants is realllyyy exciting. Summore at esplanade concourse. ;D

One more month to promos, and after that will be chiongning PW and then back to mugging again. Life's so homogenous huh? =/ Physics tuition is like gone for me, cause the teacher isn't picking up any of my papa's call. Hahahaa.

Kay, short post! gtg mug econs alr. And yes, maybe I'll consider switching over to wordpress. There's got this post protection function. But, I'll most probably play with that after promos. (:

):

2009-08-18T22:04:00.003+08:00

当希望变成泡影，
当期待不再延续。
未知的等待是煎熬，
落空的期待是考验，
无法预知的心情是一次次的磨练。
~ 竹烟

I really have no idea how to complete my green form. What should i write to convince the school to approve my application to continue with 4H2? I wonder.

My father has agree on letting me having Physics tuition even though I fail more miserably in economics. Haha. Actually, I think I'm such a letdown because my father has been very supportive in my studies and he never once gave me any stress, yet i gave him such mediocre results. Going for Pu Yuan's tuition teacher cause I think my family should be able to afford her rates. Papa's calling the teacher to 'cut price' like tmr or something.

SPA's coming in a week's time. I'm afraid, cause I really can't do calculations on stoichiometry. Physics's still okay, but I still need to go rmb all those significance figures. =/ AND Promos in a month's time. Moreover, I can't imagine project work after promos.

I need to hold on.

Sons of Victoria

2009-08-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

HAHA. Even though I'm not really attached to vj, I shall speak something for my alma mater. :D

It's very irritating to see people who've got their msn nick changed to 'sons of victoria'. I don't see the reason why VS boys got so agitated because of Vj's plan to extend its IP programme to 6 years. The affiliation wouldn't be cut cut off and vs boys still gets 2 bonus pts to vj.

Chan Poh Meng spent about 20 mins talking to us about the facebook fiasco and I just went to have a look out of curosity. ;D Interestingly, what VS fears is that vj will divert high-scoring PSLE boys to vjc instead of VS. But can they blame vj from doing so? In this highly competitive education scene, vj has to do something to keep up with the pace. They rejected becoming co-ed and they couldn't expect vj to take all our intake from VS don't they? Are all VS boys good seeds? Moreover, how can they be sure those who wants to go into vj prefers VS as well? And, the point of petitioning to drop vjc to 'Marine Parade Junior College' is really irrational I think.

For others came before and went
And carried to the world
Victoria's fame and our intent
To keep her flag unfurled.

In that short 25 history, 25 batch of graduates passed by the gates of vj and I'm sure for them, vjc meant something.

For me, vj does meant something. And i'm sure I went in not because of 'Victoria School' but because of 'Victoria Junior College'.

Drama.

2009-08-15T10:07:00.003+08:00

Damm funny today. My mum was hanging the clothes out to dry and one of the aluminium pole that she had used dropped and landed on the balcony of our neighbour living on the ground floor. 2/3 of it was on the balcony and 1/3 of it was hovering out of the balcony. So my mum and I went down with a long bamboo pole used to hand clothes and began trying to retrive it back.

Hahahahaha. Being a science student, i know i have to apply a force downwards with an object- moments! ;D, but I still can't reach it with the bamboo pole over it. So mum insists to use her own way and wanted to strike the 1/3 exposed pole sideways to get it down. Hahahahha. I knew it won't work, cuz it will only rotate. So she tried, and the whole aluminium pole rotates and landed right at the centre of the balcony. Like that how to retrive liao?

Then a kind uncle help us retrive it within a few seconds while my mother and I was there for 5 mins with people walking past wondering what the hell we were doing with the bamboo pole. HAHA.

Anyway, ignore this post because I knew nobody could understand what I'm talking about. Me is blogging so that the next time when i look back, i can at least laugh at the incident. :D

Insult

2009-08-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

I've just got insulted by an acquaintance after tkd training. Like out of nowwhere, I got insulted by this guy whom I hardly know and I hardly talk to. It's really shocking because I felt offended and disturbed by how he had described my character.. How could he give such an insinuating remark? And so much so when I was the only one talking to him during harmoc when he've got no one to talk to and I had actually felt sorry for him because he've got not much friends to talk to? Not trying to sound like I'm a good samaritan, but I really thought he's joking when he first said it, but it became more degrading and degrading, which is really too much.

Anyway, I've officially received my 'green paper', because I did not meet the criteria to offer 4H2 subjects. Was kinda more affected when I took this from the office than taking the result slip because it sort of highlighted the fact that I'm super lousy to the point I even need the school's permission to continue taking my subjects. Mrs Chua spent some time today talking about us dropping to H1 for econs and things like that. Sounds very attractive to do so, but I'm not sure if it's a wise choice because my case studies are lousier than essays and the percentage for case studies in H1 econs are higher than that of the essay portion. Dropping to H1 Physics isn't a viable option as well because I intend to take physics related stuff in uni? ):

After taking that green paper made me want to quit harmoc even more. Not because I don't like, because its just so coincidence that harmoc extends practices to thrice a week (twice for me) made me think that its just not worth my time. But on the otherhand, it's really a pity to quit harmoc because it's a nice cca and i really will feel bad if I don't keep it as my cca. Then the reality side is: If i quit, I'll have more time for my studies! I really will like to hold on, but... And, at the side note, i will feel like so guilty if I quit harmoc because I've chosen tkd over it. There's like a lot a lot of things to consider and I'm in a delimma! Most probably I'll make a decision after I get back my promo results. If they are really lousy, then I've really have little choices to make. ):

I've got a feeling that I wouldn't make be able to continue taking 4H2 after promos ): Like seriously, every tutors are concentrating on teaching those who fail their mid-years badly. People like me who had just pass got no peer tutors, no remedial programmes and no piority slot to see teachers. Like that how to pass. ): So, I'm volunteering to go for Physics remedial slots. Try to sneak into LT tmr! ;D

And yup, I'm not going for Su's farewell on Thurs. Partly because I dun wanna reach the airport so early at 7am, partly because I don't wanna pon lessons as well in the midst of all that promos stress. Felt a little guilty about it, after all Su Lin's my classmate as well. =/ But I'll be going for the sat farewell (if there's one) ;D.

Yep. That's all. Tmr's got 3 lessons of chem tutorial! I needa do tutorial! Plus Mrs Chuah's recurrence and Mr Lim's Energy, work, power. I think I don't needa any sleep today! OMgggz.
And yes, thanks Jill and Chrystal for that wonderful and inspiring card. Just received it today! ;D

yes, I know

2009-08-12T20:29:00.002+08:00

This little blog of mine had become too personal and a little too public. I think I should switch to some other hosting sites that can lock some of my posts. But, I still like blogger ttm. (:

Things drift apart just like how fast time past by.

Time. I need time. I need more time.

Mock chem spa today. Screw it like nobody's business. If that's the real spa, I'm really dead. ): Doing econs project now. Felt like damm guilty because I can't contribute much. Not because i don't want.

It's because I don't know how.

Tired

2009-08-10T21:06:00.000+08:00

Tired, tired and tired.
Revision, homework, projects, project work and other stuffs.
Ccas and ccas. Harmoc's extending thrice a week, taekwondo's adding a PT after training.

My health's suffering I think.
Who say's cca would be less taxing after syf/nationals? I think it just get worst.
Tests/SPA/Promos nearing.

I could feel the stress. I know the limits.
Sometimes its heartening to hear people telling me to relax, but sometimes I ain't giving myself additional stress. I need them. I really need them to push me forward.

Mugging and mugging. I don't like it. Who likes it anyway? But sometimes I envy those who are really smart. Not that I'm jealous or what. There are really people out there who don't study, but are smart as well. So many. The world's so unfair.

I'm really sry to those whom I've rejected for group study/ going out. It's not that I don't want. But I'm really not in the mood to do these. And the best part is, I'm easily tired nowadays.

Studies + other stuffs made my life so monotonous and taxing.
Maybe, it's great to lower my expectations of myself.

I think its time.

2009-08-10T10:25:00.001+08:00

That evoking music. That replay button.
That frustration. That delimma.
That overdued affection. That unwanted attention.
That disappointment. That appreciation.

I think it's time. Immunity or habit, I've no idea.
With a peaceful mind, I braved through all those sorrows.
Strangers criticism; I thought. Do they matter?
What hurts the most?

A little appreciation is needed. A ridicule, a satire?
Something no one could give, something I thought would happen.
Deceive is nothing but something so addictive.

So... addictive.

When i don't meant that way.

2009-08-09T22:41:00.001+08:00

Two incidents happening at the same time and I realise I don't know how to react.

Firstly, thousands apologies for causing the hurt, because it's never my intentions.
For that insensitivity and my sensitivity, for that ignorance, for those rashful statements and for my superficiality, I'm really sorry. I felt rather guilty because I've done something that I hated to do.

Secondly, I realised some things are just beyond our controls. Those succinct feelings and fears. That lack of secureness. That unpredictable path looking my way. The scariest thing was to lose it without knowing how, or knowing when. When raising my hopes too high, holding on too tight were nothing but exagerating the problem. I should have expected it, but I didn't know it would arrive so fast. Too unpredictable to predict and too overwhelmed to react.

What I need, was a little of self-consious. I knew it will happen, but i still chose to pretend not to know it and escape.

I think so.

2009-08-09T18:29:00.005+08:00

Two unglam photos taken by vj photography society. There's so many ppl out there performing and they just wanna take a close-up shot of me!!! So ugly leh. ): Can like see all my pimples alr. I want to cry already la. T.T

I'm eating orange now. I'm blogging about it because this is the first time I eat an orange since secondary three. I don't like orange, but I'm forced to eat because my parents and aunts want me to 'poo poo' everyday. They says orange can help 'peristalsis movement' (i still rmb sec 2 bio can!) But Orange sucks! Especially those white white thing (which is supposedly fibre). Ewwww! >(

Today's spend on mugging chemistry. Actually I sort of like chemical bonding, even though I don't understand a bit of it. xD Partly because I find Mrs Yik damm 'sexy' and funny and partly because i think it's a very fun topic. :D I think i should try to like more of the subject. :D

Anyway, the painkiller doesn't help much and instead it made me feel more drowsy. And I've found a medical term for my back pain- Sciatica. Hahaha. I found it cuz i typed the name of the medicine and then it came out the word. Damm clever right? ;D

Alright. Back to chem (:
And, Happy birthday Singapore! :D

Sometimes I should really treat those i love better. Like really.

C13 Outing

2009-08-08T22:55:00.005+08:00

Short post (: I'm tired.
C13 outing today. (: Was so punctual because smelly said don't be late, but ended up the rest all late. So i went to look at pens cause I wanna buy some pens. But I still didn't buy any in the end. Kind of stupid. xD

Was very tired today for no reasons even though I've slept early yesterday. Hahaha. Played monkey and captain's ball before I started to get cui alr. LOL. Anyway, the sun's quite hot today. Yee Ru's face was very red and all of us got like some degree of burn. Anyway, today's more of nuaing than playing la. But I'm really too tired to continue because the sun's too hot and I can't have energy without my lunchhhhh. Hehe. :D Was about to play the last game of captain's ball when one caucasian kid arnd 5 years old came scaring us. Tsk. Really can't believe it, cause he's just too young to know all these things? Horny Australian. Shall not elaboarate further on that disgusting incident (:

Wash up and went vivo to eat. Ate long-john while the rest ate subway. I don't really like sandwiches =x. And I think I sounded a little pissed off when I can't find the rest. HAHA. Partly because calls kept coming in and i'm in a delimma whether anot to answer and partly because I always have the problem of spotting ppl and summore its very dark just now. Haha. Chit-chtted for a while and then trained home. I like chit-chatting because I only need to move my mouth. Like seriously, its nice to talk. (: Hahaha. I'm not good at physical stuff. But idk why my nafa's still gold. Damm inaccurate. Next time should just nua at some place and talk. HAHA.

Not as fun as previous sentosa's outing, maybe because the sun's too hot? Hopefully. Hahaha. I think I need to catch some sleep now- my eyelids droping. Hehe. But Still contemplating if I should eat the extra-strong panadol for my back. Doc said its very effective, but I don't like the idea of getting hooked on panadols D: But maybe I should just try once. :D:D:D

Sometimes I don't know if I should help others in their school work because I'll get the feeling of being used by others, which is... School's work pilling up and harmoc's practices extended to 3 days a week. That means I'll be home at 8 plus everyday except Wednesday. Bull shit. If it continues on, I'm so going to retain. It's a little wierd to hear things like "because the performance is so near and so we extend..." A little irony: If you knew we weren't going to have the time, why accept the performance? Okay. I think that's all for the rantings. ;D

It's a few months since we last met. And it seemed like ages...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

2009-08-07T21:27:00.003+08:00

Parade, mini carnival, singing sessions, mass dances, cheers.
All those fun-buzzing activities in vj really made national day a fun celebrations. (:

Got up early in the morning so I wouldn't miss the last bus that could bring me to school before 7.20am. The problem: that so called 'important briefing' by the SC was: "Those performing after ics have to go for morning assembly". Great. How important was that? xD

Assembly was really cool. We could line up as we wish, chat with classmates and Mrs Judah while the marching in and the speech are going on. Heh. Imagine in Zhonghua- Desmond Chong will be mad like hell. ;D After all that small buzz was the start of the carnival. Went back LT1 to wait for harmoc's turn to perform and play some itouch games with Pu Yuan. LOL. Finally it was Harmoc's turn! I've specially told some of my classmates where I'll be standing so that they can support me! BHB huh? :D Anywwaaay, thanks to those who came and support, especially Jun Liang and Gordon. Heh. It really encouraging to hear all that cheers! :D And yes, before harmoc even started, Zoey and I began checking the stand, cause we were scared that the stand will 'drop' by itself while we were playing. But even though we've checked, just about a min before we started playing, the stand nearly gave way. Zoey and I were like 'OMG?'. HAHAHA. But luckily in the end, nothing went wrong. (:

Photos kope from melissa. (:

Climbed up all the way to the tree area and watch the rest of the performance with my classmates and Jin Ming. ;D HAHAHAHA. Only Jin Ming and I sang all the national day songs. Come on, they are nice!!! I like them :} The finale item was mass dance. Went down all the way to the bus bay with Gordon and David. We basically forgot all the dance moves! But it still feels good remembering how it feels like to a freshman; just like what I am in the beginning of the year! (:

Left for my aunt's home after that because she's bringing me to see the doctor about my back. It's really nice of my aunt to bring me there. Heh. My aunts are all very nice ppl (: Waited for about an hr plus? I don't really like polyclinic doctors because I got scolded by one male doctor the last time I went there. But this time, this doctor was so friendly and his those kind who will say some jokes. Hahaha. Change my perceptions alr la. :D Nothing's really serious about my back. Just that it's injuired alr and the muscles are all spasmed up so it tends to hurt. So have to do apply hot press, do more strectching and maintain good postures. The doctor gave me medicines for my acne also. HAHA. and so i've decided to downgrade to polyclinic for my acne because private consultations are really very expensive. =/

Alright. So today is one of the more joyous day I had. Hahahaha. Didn't do much revision though =x
And yes, Sentossssaaa tmr! :D

(p.s. Happy 44th birthday singapore in 2 days time ;D)

Lazy to blog.

2009-08-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

I'm very lazy to blog, especially when i look like a praying mantis while I'm typing because i got cut by my harmoc- which is damm stupid. Who will get cut by a harmoc? xD

Feeling Fab on tuesday was fun. Learned some self-defence moves which was different from taekwondo. But I bet I'll get to use them since I'll run first before the person attack me. Haha. Luckilly I've got Jin Ming as my partner if not that 3 hrs will be damm boring. LOl. Second session was on inline skating. No one 'I knew' were there, but its okay, cause inline skating doesn't need a partner. Was quite fun because its my first time trying and after that i can really skate alr (: Very similar to ice-skating, so it's quite easy to learn. Haha. Stonned for a few hrs in the concourse to wait for tkd and by the time tkd started, I'm really very tired. Yawwwnnn. Tuesday's training was damm hiong. Keep on kicking and kicking, footwork and some PT which was kindof tired.

And yes. I've gotten back all my results. SSEEE. Great combination. I think I'm so gonna be retained- or perhaps asked to drop a subject to H1. That will be damm sad. Mrs Judah is so going to call and have a nice talk with my father. HAHHA. But its okay, since my father was absoulutely calm when I told him my results. Heh.

Life's not getting better and sometimes I think how nice if I happen to retain for another year? More time to study, and more time to get better results ultimately. Haha. Wierd feelings i guess.

When I'm an idiot

2009-08-03T21:58:00.005+08:00

The school refuses to change the slot of feeling fab for Jun Liang. So that means I'll having my feeling fab tmr alone. (edit: Just realised Jin Ming's same as mine for morning session :D)
Handphone battery was flat at around noon.
Missed my bus just when Caitlyn and I were just one metre away from the bus stop.
The bus broke down halfway and I was stucked in the middle of Tanjong Katong.

Just not a day for me.

"Oh hello, and national day, know you guys are like playing scoccer or
wtv aft the celebrations, but is class outing (kboxing perhaps) to celebrate
tomas and wenjie's bday still on? Please reply the msg kay, with (i) YES DUH I
WOULDN'T MISS CLASS OUTING FOR THE CENTURY or (ii) nahh, i'm an idiot who has
better things to do, not joining you guys thanks!"
"Hi. Sry for the late reply! I dun think I'm free on fri! Sry!"
"So you're an idiot."

Stunned, shocked, angered, hurt. Something that I've never imagine would happen to me. Something so abusive, so hurtful, so insulting. Something that I've never expected a ~~friend~~ classmate to say. So I guess this is peer pressure? And because I didn't want to succumb to it, I got hurt- just like what those newspapers have been reporting? Is it my fault to choose not to go? What's so wrong about being firm of my own decision? I've got a doctor appointment on that day and because of that I'm an idiot? And so much so because I'm not a close friend of yours, I've to suffer your humiliation?

Su Lin's migrating to UK on 20th August. And because you are a good friend of hers, you expect the whole class to skip class on that day and send Su Lin off at the airport. Forced obligations. I'm forced to, not willingly to. I'm really tired. Tired of all these. Peer pressure is daunting. I felt like I'm being tied up in a balloon and I've no control over what direction I can move, but under the manipulation of the wind. I hate this.

I still remembered that slip of paper I've wrote for myself during GP lesson. What do I want to achieve after I've graduated from vj? I wanted to have true friends, not those hi-bye friends.

I seriously doubt I can achieve it.

From the day I've stepped into vj and the day I stepped out of it, I'm not sure if I've regretted choosing it as my first choice.

Dialect

2009-08-02T21:09:00.003+08:00

My friend and I were having a conversation with the beehoon aunty in vj the other day.
Friend(in dialect): Aunty, I think I cannot get promoted this year.
Aunty(in dialect): Why? Sure can get promoted one la.
Friend(in dialect): Very hard.
Aunty(in dialect): Work hard la. My son who had just graduated got 3 As and 1B.
Me(in chinese): Wow. So good ar?
Aunty(in chinese): Where got good? He never got any scholarship.
-End-

It's very funny to be able to apprehend dialect, but can't speak them.
And, I guess all parents are humble and like to put their children down in front of others, but they were in fact very proud of them. (:

Busy week coming! Feeling Fab on Tuesday, harmoc practice/taekwondo on Thursday, National day performance on Friday and Sentosa outing with C13 on Saturday. I've got 3 'appointments' on Friday- outing with class, taekwondo outing and back to zhss with Kester and co. I think I'll be going to the latter one. So long didn't got to see them already. :D

Did a study schedule last week. So far, I didn't follow very closely- which is very disappointing. I've tried, but I'm just too tired to finish everything that was needed. In the end, I didn't revise Redox, AP/GP/Summation, kinematics and energy, work, power.

I need the motivation to keep me going.

(edit: tkd this tues even though it's feeling fab?)

Untitled

2009-07-31T21:08:00.003+08:00

Walking around, glancing, looking.
Hoping,wishing, praying.
When everything's a facade. A lie, a show.
Shockingly, or should it be understandably?

Not a tinge of numbness, not a feeling of pain.
because it don't matter, and so it won't pain.
A mockery, a sin, a sinister plot.
An unwanted struggle, that's bound to be alot.

Nonchalent and ignorance.
Lying on that cold writing table, feigning, bearing and waiting.
A series of provoking thoughts, that stun me out of thoughts.
A realisation. A self-awareness.

Nothing's close to that.
Resisting sympathy,I thought.
I have to hold on.

I'm Tired

2009-07-27T21:43:00.005+08:00

My palm pressing against my sweaty forehead, foraging, applying pressure on those bulging pimples.
I'm tired. I don't know if I can do it; those promises I've made.
With the clock ticking away, the calender looking my way, I laughed. I've lost to it once again.
Or.., was it to myself?

I want to escape, I want to run away. I'm not sure if I'm able to hold on, I don't know if I've the courage to stand up if I fall again. I don't wanna know the truth, I don't wanna deceive myself. I've got tons of dreams and goals, churning messily in my head. Those wildest imaginations I've ever had.

The music's playing, my heart's beating, my mouth's singing.
I grasped. The music notes. To no avail.

Maybe, I have to learn how to let go.

And yes, maybe it's a time for me to stop blogging for a little while. Maybe, I've to listen to the small details.
Maybe. Maybes. In life, there's too much uncertainties.

全世界都停了電

2009-07-26T11:25:00.002+08:00

全世界都停了電全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
~<全世界都停了電> TANK

Money

2009-07-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

I think money is one of the most essential things in life.

I could sense Dad's disatisfaction after he heard that aunty's going to bring me see a doctor regarding my aching back. A little of irony because he had once told me to see a doctor myself.

JC is some shit. I think I'm earning subnormal profit (where, TR < TC ;D) because of that. Class funds, subject funds and cca funds. I'm using my own pocket money to pay for all these and the best part is, my pocket money is only like $25 including my transport fees? And yes, i paid for tkd grading this time because no matter how hard i hint my papa, he just didn't want to give and I'm too embarrasssed to keep asking money from him. Maybe he can't catch my hints! xD

YES. I suddenly remembered that 'they' said we need not pay harmoc fund if concert is a success (in terms of sales). What a scam. We sold 717/780 tickets which adds up to $7170? Plus my $40 loss on 2 chalets which I'm not going. My savings were totally depleted after I went to JC, its like I've got like $300 plus before and now I'm left with $100 in my piggy bank? Of course I do spent some on myself, but I don't think it's that much!

Okay. I realised I'm super poor now. Maybe I'll go hint my papa on my grading later. xD!
(edit, successful ;D)

HAHA

2009-07-24T22:40:00.002+08:00

MY SISTER SAYS I'M THE MOST HANDSOME IN MY CLASS. (:

Muahahha!
Kay, it's a little of an irony today because everyone's dying to get into vj and instead, I'm dying to get out today. I think the school's a little toooo excited about it. I heard only a coach and a player came? Lol. Anyway, I don't know the player name cuz I'm not a liverpool fan nor am I a soccer fan. xD

I realise i forgot what I wanna blog about alr. I'll continue later if i remember. ;D

bad Day

2009-07-22T17:05:00.005+08:00

It's one of those bad days.

Slept at 4am despite not finishing the WR.
The photocopier aunty 'dao' me TWICE today and refused to do my business. I was just trying to photocopy the articles that I need for EOM.
Tan yee hwee caught my hair, again. (He might not have caught me if the photocopier aunty agreed to help me photocopy -.-) But he's in a good mood today I suppose, since he said 'your hair's getting longer' and told me to have a haircut soon, with an unexpected calm tone.
My aunt has got her cornea detached from one of her eyes. ): She will be going into the operation room at 6pm. Hope she will be fine! ):

Talking to someone about Project Work really do take some load out of my mind. Thanks.

hahahah. Class photos. i think the last one is damm cool and i also think my face look so fat. >(

Alright. Need to do homework alr. ;D

PW

2009-07-22T01:22:00.002+08:00

Nowadays i get so irritated by small things for no reasons. I don't like it at all. ):

PW is wasting my time away. And i feel it's damm insinuating to write 'Compiled WR - Robin's and Vikki's parts not included' as the email title. Suggesting I hadn't done anything? When I sent they all the GPP, why didn't I just write "Compiled GPP- (their names) not included". -.-

And yes. The file's not called compiled. They just combined whatever we had done after GPP. No one even care to insert them into our GPP which is the backbone of our WR. And that's called "WR first draft"?

Sometimes i really wonder if they really know what a proposal is all about. I mean, i really can't stand it. 4 months more. I'm waiting and PW is out of my sight. Andyes, that's why I can't stand projects. It's always like that. There's always someone out there trying to get things right and then someone out there trying to think everything IS alright.

If I'm not getting A for my PW after so much of my efforts are invested on it, I'm going to cry. Like seriously cry. Damm it. Half of EOM done. I'm so going to compiled the WR after my EOM. And yes, I'm wasting my night away with this stupid MOE idea, who tries to show to the world that they are innovative to come out with a subject. But the main point is, everyone's complaining about it, and they are not doing anything about it.

Damm pissed off now.

To Kill A Mockingbird

2009-07-21T22:54:00.002+08:00

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view--until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." ~To kill a Mockingbird

I think I've used that quote before.

Some things that I held on tightly got trampled so heavily by some words of discouragement. I really want to do something I like. And that's what I like. And because you think there's extra clothings to wash. I understand. I really understand.

You don't really understand me, I thought.

Mahjong

2009-07-21T22:16:00.003+08:00

"hey, are you marking attendance? *with a jovial tone "
"ya?"
"Okay, Pu Yuan's sick today".
"Blank Stare, turned around and continue writing on the foolscape".

Wow. (feels like slapping her). Exco big ar? -.-

Mrs Judah showed us "To kill a Mocking Bird" today. A very long movie, but watching the second time seems to give me a different impression. Nice movie though. Hahaha. ;D
Taekwondo's trainings have resumed today. It's been a long time since we did training in school. Hahaha. Have fun gossiping with the girls. Lol. Sir's doing non-contact sparring today, whch is kind of unexpected? Paired up with Elton because we are like the only 2 yellow belt guys. ;D I think I'm damm suck at stationary kicking. Heh, no sound when i hit the target! ): But I seemed to be able to the kick propery while doing distancing with the target! Got that 'piak' sound! (:(:(: Lucky I did go for Sparex. ;D

Tomorrow's h&f. I highly doubt I'll be going. I haven't told the chairperson I'm quitting because I don't know how to phrase it. Most prob I will just sms him la. And then I'm also seeing my h&fians every other day and I think it's so awkward telling them in the middle of the conversation that "hey, i think I'm quitting h&f". =/

Kay. Rushing my eom that has had to be handed in tmr (12 noon). First draft though, but then I wanted to do it well so i don't have to do alot of amendments for the next draft. But I'm sooooo tired from the trainings just now. ): The government really thinks that Jc peeps have nothing better to do to do? I don't see how we can be 'innovative and creative' by doing pw.

Alright, nid to go do my EOM alr. But, I feeeel like playing mahjong now. ;D;D;D AND YES, MY CLASS IS HAVING BOWLING AS OUR PE LESSONS NEXT WEEK. Damm cool! ;D

=O

2009-07-20T15:28:00.002+08:00

My slider file that I had used less than a day broke. -.-

Kay. I've decided to invest in a new pencilcase and a set of colourful marker pens. Coloured marker pens are cool. (:

Me is super-ultra duber tired now. ):
And yes, I haven't even start on my EOM, which is due on Wednesday. ):

(edit)
I felt so worthless and helpless.
I wish time stops for me.

To take or not to?

2009-07-19T20:04:00.002+08:00

My dad's elder sister asked me mother to help her mend the hole on his son's undergarment (boxer). -.- Insert => [!@#$%^&*] What does his son's boxer has to do with my mother? What the hell? My mum ain't a maid can. Insert => [-.- power to infinity]

Back to topic. Interesting commotion happening in my house just now. Hmm. I think Mediacorp can come my house and film a hundred long episode on my family alr. ;D Mum brought back lots of second-hand stuffs today. She always brought back lots of those whenever she helped out in my aunty's container. As usual, I added some soft toys into my collection, hahahaha. My sister got dammed pissed off and hysterical with those stuffs and she insisted the new mousepad that my mum brought home to be replaced with the previous one.

I don't know what's wrong because it's really new (wrapped in unopened plastic cover). She just think that they are full of bacteria? My mum's a little sad because her good intentions aren't appreciated. But hey, I think it's perfectly alright to own second-hand stuffs- you just need a little washing and cleaning, that's all. I grew up with second-hand stuffs, like all my toys that I've played with when I was young were given by others, those reference books, my cabinet, the computer desk, the coffee table, my sister's bed, my grandmother's bed, my clothings and even my teeev were second-hand stuffs!

It's perfectly alright to own second-hand stuffs. Like why not? It's not like I have to part with my dignity when I have second-hand stuffs. 穷人就是这样。Who doesn't want to have new and pretty stuffs? But when we ain't rich, we have to be satisfied. I like second-hand stuffs, some of them are really nice and pretty and the best thing is, they are free. ;D

Kay, Gtg. I'm a damm procrastinator. I did nothing today even though I told myself to revise something. ): I'm like a bastard. I think I have to curse myself to motivate myself. *grins. Maybe the school should gave me more Us for mid-years. Then most probably I'll be scared out of my wits and study 24 hrs a day. (:

Getting back Econs on Thurs or Friday. Friday's a halfday! Saturday's busy because of vj's 25th anniversary thingy and taekwondo grading (yes, I'll be promoting to yellow belt! ;D) and Monday's a full day! (unless harmoc wants extra practices -.-)

我不知道快乐的定义。我也不知道人生的定义。
那么系统化的人生我不喜欢。我不想就这样懵懵懂懂地过完我的人生。
每天无厘头的忙，我根本没有时间花在家里和朋友上。
读书？聪明和愚蠢的人就是不一样。
为什么要用教育来区别他们呢?

3.28am

2009-07-19T03:28:00.002+08:00

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating.

Mood-swings?

2009-07-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

Kay. I think it is damm stupid to post another post when the previous post that I've typed was just a mere hr ago?

I don't like mood-swings. And I think I'm suffering from one.

I feel so down right now that I feel like going to night safari.
I just bought 5 uni-ball pens of different colours- orange, pink, red, purple and blue which cost me 10 bucks.
I've bought a file and then decided to place all my new pens in it. But I still decided to put some in my pencil case.
I laughed at the slightest thing for no reasons.
I got pissed off and blow my temper off when my sis asked me to help her with her handphone.
I drank a can of ice lemon tea even though I'm full.

Damm disgusting.
If I've decided to write another post later, I'm even more disgusting.

Back to normal

2009-07-18T19:31:00.004+08:00

I've deleted the previous post. ^^

Sprained wrist, injuired leg and painful thumb.
Why did i have so much injuries? =/

It's not easy to be me.

(edit)
Kay. I'm having mood-swings again. Like, again? ):

Results

2009-07-17T15:20:00.001+08:00

Typed the wrong grade for mathematics yesterday.

Physics: S
Mathematics: E
Chemistry: E

SEE.

wow.

results

2009-07-16T22:23:00.003+08:00

Physics: S
Mathematics: D
One pass, one nearly fail. Oh well. You see lots of people getting 90 over for maths and you'll get demoralised.

Harmonc is way too much. You must reach the venue 6 mins before the stipulated time or you'll be considered late and latecomers will be punished. New ruling by the new exco. Not sure if they are trying to prove their existence, but I seriously can't accept them. This isn't even implemented by the J2s excos and now they are implementing it. Are we criminals or what? In a military regime? Within 6 mins and you are considered late. I'm not even considered late if I'm late for lectures for 10 mins. Even though I'm mostly punctual and most probably wouldn't be affected by that, but I'm just "bu shuang". CCA is solely built on passion and trust. I don't know why we have to implement rules when most of us are punctual. It's not even because we were always late for practices? The majority were very punctual. I don't see the "effectiveness" of the new rule. The exco are just doing something irrelevant. Too much time to come out with ideas? -.-

I'm really drifting away from harmoc for all sort of random reasons and especially so because I don't really like my SL. Heh. I just knew that its like the whole section 3 knew I don't like the SL. HAHAHA. That's what Caitlyn said. xD

And yes. If they ask me back for practices on 27, which is a full day for all victorians, I will quit harmoc. -.- (again, I don't see what's the point of threatening us to practice. Are they trying to suggest we won't practice on our own during our free time?)

Vj notes

2009-07-15T17:52:00.005+08:00

I've long wanted to say this, but seriously, vj's notes sucks big time.

I don't know how to phrase it, but when compared to other schools, vj's lecture notes aren't very good. Maybe except Maths. ;D

I sort of dislike vj's notes because they don't organise the stuffs in the lecture notes. Dumb students like me will get confused with them. Especially Bonding and Organic Chem. And yes, the chemistry department taught us organic chem even before teaching Chemical bonding? -.- It's like teaching us sigma and pi bonds first, then the chemical bonding lecture will "refresh" our memory of the sigma and pi bonds. What an irony?

Physics notes were... HAHAHA. I literally refer to po-hsun notes rather than vj's. i think there's too little information in there alr. okay, i uploaded a few pictures with my new printer my papa bought. First time trying out the scanner! Damm excited. ;D

hahaha. Very lame stuffs la. i'm just trying out my printer though. Hehe. I think the first one is damm funny. "if a stone is thrown into a pond.... but a _______ floating on water merely..." The blank is the work "cork". Why are we required to fill in something so trival? xD Half of vj's notes needs to be "filled in the blanks" by us, which i don't like. Why spending half the lecture time writing when we could use the time in teaching other stuffs? Moreover, when I'm writing, I can't absorb what the lecturer is talking about. Like seriously, I can't multi-task.

Getting back maths paper tmr, which is like damm sad. ):
Mrs chuah was dropping hints on Monday to the whole class that we've not done very well. 1/3 scoring very well, 1/3 average and the other 1/3 were.... Kay. I was very hesistant to look straight into her eyes. And she spent half the lessons saying things like "You know not everyone will get promoted at the end of jc1 right?". That sentence send chills down my spine can. ):

Most probably getting Physics tmr back as well. Hopefully not econs since I can't take the impact of knowing I've scored 3Us. Hmm. I think Koh weiting should got back her results yea? I think she owes me ice-cream now can. :D

Taekwondo training on Friday. Missed out Harry potter movie with C13. I want watch Harry Potter!!! ):

I paused a moment.

2009-07-12T15:22:00.005+08:00

2 big economic books lying around and I hardly studied today. Procrastination is eating a big part of my determination now.

I don't know what to expect of myself in the near future. I don't know if I could just hang on there for promos or would I fail miserably halfway. I don't know if I can do revision and at the same time learn new things when term starts (which had already). I just want to be, or at least try to be a studious person for the next half of the year. Harmoc's having performances during National Day, Teacher's Day, at Esplanade concourse and caroling in December. No doubt, all these stuffs will be time-consuming. I need time. I really need. But mugging hard doesn't equals to scoring well. I fear. I don't know if I've got the intelligence to do so.

6 months into Jc life. From the first day I've stepped into vj feeling I've done myself proud to the point when I'm so utterly disgusted by myself. What an irony. I will not continue foolishly believe that everything's going to be alright. Nothing's going to be right. When I don't understand a single thing in lecture, when I have no idea how to do those tutorials and when I've screwed up my exams.

Jc life is so superficial. So superficial that i have totally no intentions of making friends there. I came to realise what's the distinction between friends, classmates and cca mates. We could chat, laugh together, study together, but we ain't friends. We are purely classmates. I've a few close friends in jc, but talking to secondary school friends just seems so much more genuine.

I can't see the future. I don't know if I could hang on till A levels.
I think I've lost myself somewhere and I cannot find it.

Maybe I should ask C13 or Po-husn&gang out for group study on Sunday.

(edit)
You have reached 16.5 years old and therefore are liable for National Service under the Enlistment Act. (chapter 93)...." Wow. I suddenly realised I'm still quite young actually? :D

Drag Me To Hell

2009-07-11T19:57:00.006+08:00

Kay. A continuation to Friday's post. :D

Got back home from school. Surf the net and received Jing Kai msg if I wanna go back zhss later. Didn't want to go cause I've washed my uniform alr (I don't want Thanna to kick me out of the school xD) and also because I'll be meeting Pu Yuan and Weiting at 4.30pm. Then Weiting called after i msg-ed Jingkai (Wow, telepathy) and asked if I'll be going to ZHSS later. Got persuaded (because I've got a soft heart xD) and tell her not to pang sei me. But knowing that kaypoh queen might pang sei me, I msg her before i left the hse and she ms back and said it's cancelled. >(

Then I fell asleep while waiting for her msg and so I'm late. ;D

Pu yuan asked to meet at 4.20 when the movie's starting at 5.40pm. Dammm pro. xD Shopped around before py wanted to go national library and she just abandoned weiting and I while she go look for her books. So, koh and I went around shelves and shelves while chatting. koh weiting's very noisy! =p She forgot her medicine tat day and kept on laughing! xD And yes, Pu Yuan used my library card to borrow her books! ):

Went ino the cinema and we got so afraid by the passageway. Looked like some ghostly walkway =/ We moved like 5 seats in front after i complained about the small screen (which is really quite small). Got prepared and the show started. I'm not afraid of the show can! >< I was only putting both of my palms on my face because I'm cold can!!! I think the show quite nice leh. At least I got "sia dao". hahahaha. The illogical part is the front part la. Why would the old woman curse someone because tat somebody embarrased her? Actually the girl shouldn't had died la! So sad. Went to pasar malam to grabbed something after the show. I didn't because I'm scared untill I'm full alr. ;D After eating, Pu Yuan took the MRT home while Weiting and I took bus home. (: What a nice way to celebrate post-midyears. ;D Went home, bathe, ate and used the computer. viwawa with shihui and her friends till 12.30pm and then went to sleep. Hmm. Didn't expect myself to hold on till so late cuz i slept for 2 hrs the day before only. Sense of satisfaction man! ;D Kay. I've started mugging alr. Starting with economics! :D (and yes, I've decided to quit h&f and to postpone learning sparring from sir till the end of promos)

Thank you for being in my life.

Mid-years

2009-07-10T13:48:00.003+08:00

I must confess that the Mid-years papers ain't hard. But because I didn't work hard enough, I couldn't do those questions.

I wonder how i could get into vj wth such standards.

1 month to SPA, 3 more months to promos.
I fear.

Thanks

2009-07-07T19:29:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow's GP exam, so I'm able to got hold of the computer today. (:

I really have to thank those who have wished me all the best in my exams through my tagbox, msn, sms and facebook. Whenever I saw those lovely messages you all had gave me, it gave more strength and courage to move on. I'm to shy to type names here but I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your encouragements! :D

Today is the first day of my exam and I've got a "present" from the school. Got up in the morning with a runny nose because the weather is very cold today? Got onto the bus and I'm still sneezing. Little did I realised the man seating just right in front of me is a teacher from vj. The moment I got down from the bus, the teacher stopped me, asked if I'm okay and whether I'm down with H1N1! =O After my repeated reassurance that it's because of the cold weather, the teacher went off first. Walked towards the school gate with Jessica and the moment I went in the gate, I'm stopped by Mr wee there. (Omg, that teacher went to tell Mr wee).

At this point, actually I felt rather amused by the whole incident. ;D Were asked some standard question (again) if I got a fever, I'm feeling alright etc. Then I was supposed to take my temperature on the spot (with so many ppl walking past me). A little embarrassed but its a "once in a lifetime experience, huh?" ;D Were actually asked to quarantine in a some unknown place, then Mr wee suggested me wearing a mask and later just asked me to request for a corner seat in the hall. Evil koh weiting wants me to go quarantine and Mrs Judah actually laugh so loudly when I told her! xD

Being a socially responsible citizen ;D, I followed instructions and told the chief examiner to place me at the corner. But I don't know what happen, Mr Chow says i need to go to some place and quarantine?! Followed him to the general office and the vice principal came out and have a talk with me. After knowing that my runny nose is temporary, I was asked to go back to the hall. This is the embarassing part. There's like 30 tables in one row, and my class has got only 9 ppl taking Physics. So the first 8 tables were occupied. I'm asked to sit not at the 9th table, but at the last table! And because I'm the last one in and so everyone's staring and wondering, because I'm not seating after the last person of my class, but instead at the last seat of the row! xD

Alright. That's all for that exciting H1N1 incident. ;D

Today's exams are very relaxing for me. Not even a tinge of nervousness nor disappointment. First time I'm not feeling anything when I taking the exam. Maybe because I'm mentally prepared? Seriously, I think physics is not very hard, but just that I dunno how to do. Hahahaha. Economics was a killer. I finished the whole paper in 1hr 30mins because I seriously have nothing to write. Even when I try to crap, I can't crap anything out! ); Then I got amused when people keep on asking for more paper when I've got more than enough paper on my table. And, the first time in my whole life I slept during an exam. =O There's a 8 marks question and I simply wrote a short paragraph and hand in. Heh. Not really affected by econs, because I sort anticipated that I wouldn't be able to pass econs. ;D

Okay. gtg mug for Maths alr. (:
and yes, I'll reply all my tags some other time. (:

A string of photos

2009-07-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, pictures speaks a thousand words.
Maybe I should just take some photos someday and then post it up as a post.

Hadn't had a decent sleep since Friday. Hmm. I need some concentration. And sometimes I could only blame myself for overestimating my capabilities, and making myself so busy. In the beginning, I should had been a mugger and mug till mid-years. Maybe, I wouldn't be as frantic as now.

Just printed out my own notes that I've typed. Half-completed. I realised I'm such a procrastinator (is there such a word?). Why couldn't I finish a set of notes and not leave it undone?

Mid-years in 2 days. I'm seriously not prepared.

人生

2009-07-04T16:17:00.004+08:00

我的脸不懂为什么都湿了。

吵架没好话。因为我忘了关电脑的插头而跟我吵起来。又不是忘了关电脑？你说我有坏习惯、固执、脾气暴躁又不可理喻。好，我都接受。最让我受不了的就是当你说我每次犯错都不肯认错。原来在你眼中，你的儿子是这样的一个人？当你说“读名校后就不一样”，我简直是崩溃了。难道就因为我读名校所以我就骄傲起来？别人怎么说我都好，可是为什么连自己的亲妈妈也这样误解我！我很痛心，原来这16年来，她认为我不过是如此！

我感到好委屈，致电我的阿姨向她哭诉，一接通电话的那一刻我就控制不了情绪了。还好有阿姨安慰我，之后心情就比较好了。

痛彻心肺。我不懂要说什么了。
我人生的考验未免太艰难了吧？

What's right and what's wrong?

2009-07-03T09:42:00.006+08:00

I can say I've done my utmost best to be a younger brother. But as an elder sister, what had you done? Never had you once said a sorry when you did something wrong. Instead, you didn't realise you were wrong. You claimed that because I think I'm smarter, you claimed that I think I'm perfect but you never did once think it was your fault? I always envied how others treat their younger siblings. How I heard about them treating their younger siblings for a meal after they've got their first pay, how they've bought something for them. And I wondered, had you done any of those? Seriously, I wouldn't mind if you didn't do any of those. But what about showing more concern? You didn't even realise I went for camp for 3 days? You could just went to sleep even though you knew I fell asleep when I'm studying- with my spectacles still on my face and my notes scattered all round my bed? Are we strangers? Putting that aside, who says being the younger one is really better? When Papa and mummy bought a new printer home because you desperately need one for your project, you continue surfing the web and doing your own stuffs as if you have nothing to do with it while I have to fix and install everything for you. Did I grumble or what? What I'm really disappointed and hurt isn't because you didn't treat me well. It's just that till this day, even though you are 18, you failed to realise what's right and what's wrong and i seriously dont know how you are going to survive with your "I'm always right attitude". And you miserably failed to know how's showing you concern. You think I like to pick up a verbal fight with you? What I've said were all for your own good. You said I think I'm always right, you said I'm proud, you said because I'm more cleverer than you, so I like to argue wih you. That's the most hurtful thing I've ever heard? You really think because I'm clever, I would throw my weights around? I don't know why my goodwill was so heavily stepped upon by you.

I knew I've done my very best as a younger brother. But I'm not sure if I've failed as one. Looking at the picture on the left, I really don't know what to say anymore.

Mid-years

2009-06-30T22:07:00.001+08:00

Glancing through all the Chemistry questions that I'm supposed to finish during the holidays and realised what I saw was just question marks and more question marks.

I'm so afraid. Really.

I know I'll fail, just that I don't want to fail very badly.

):

AYG

2009-06-29T20:43:00.003+08:00

Sat down excitedly on my sofa and then tunned in to channel 5 for AYG. The excitement died down after 5 mins because the show is really very boring. And I don't know why the compere kept on saying "AY..." and then expects the ppl there to shout "g" back? He did it for like 15 times? Then I don't know why they expected the audiences to wave the piece of cloth (silk) that was given to them for 5 mins and then telling them to raise it up and down. Looked like a circus act? =/

Heh. I wouldn't even watch if smelly shihui wasn't in it. Waited like damm long, can't take it, so just walked around my house. xD Finally, one hr later, at 8pm, hahahaha, me spotted smelly shihui. Me was prepared to take a picture down, but i flimed it instead, but the quality was so bad that shihui's face can't even be seen. HAHAHA. 2.0 megapixels phone is like that. Not bad, not bad! shihui was smiling like she got first prize in 4D or she just got married or something. ;D

Hahahahah. Excited man. My friend's on teeev.

Kay. I switched off the tv after ~~Bhutan~~ Bahrain(edited- info from shihui's blog) came out. Eh, is shihui holding Bhutan's flag? Er, is there even such a country? Hmm. I think I'm too excited to go notice the flag she's holding. ;D

Haha ;D

2009-06-29T11:23:00.002+08:00

It's a little weird waking up at 6am and rushing to catch the bus at 6.40am again. But anyway, the timing for my bus was off, since it's the first day of school. ;D

It's a little irony that vj is sort of boasting its new PA system by making 3 PA announcement in the morning because the library's aircon hasn't been fixed (even though they knew it malfunctioned before the holidays) and the aircon in LT1 was spoilt on the first day of term 3. Quite funny. xD

School today is alright. Some temperature taking and lessons? Hmm, everything is back to normal, i guess? Just updated my goggle calender and hey, other ppl could have fun after their exams (especially there's youth day holiday ):) when the vj peeps are mugging their heads off. Not fun at all. ):

Anyway, best of luck to those who are taking their mid-years CT! (:
Okay. Times up. Got to rush to LT1 for physics lecture. Why isn't the aircon spoilt after my lecture? ):

Friends

2009-06-26T22:24:00.005+08:00

Some updates to facebook just now. Changed all the things in the "info" pages. Heh, haven't been updating them since I've first joined facebook. xD Changed a profile picture as well. Can't find any at first, tried putting C13 group photo but looked kinda wierd, so I just put the picture of my sister and I. Haha. Koh Weiting can go see how my sis looked like alr. ;D

This week had been a very fruitful one for me, even though I didn't studied much. =/
Outing with C13 on Monday and then stayed over at Weiting's hse. Thursday was spent studying with Wei Ting, Shihui, lucas, nicholas and jing Kai at koh's hse. Group study with Guo Pei, Po-Hsun and Kester on Friday. I realised I've missed them a lot. Each and everyone of them. And especially Kester, since the last time i saw him was in February. Talking to them brought me great joy and lots of memories. I realised i missed my secondary school life so much. The thing I'm most overwhelmed was that we could still talked as if we last saw each other yesterday. That special and unique feeling, and the ease and comfort I felt when talking to them. (:

I'm very glad I'm still able to maintain this special bond and relationship. Really. Cuz I myself had very close primary school friends before. We ate in the canteen together, walked home together, studied together. And that 3-4 years of friendship just got erased when we moved on to our respective secondary school. It was kind of pity i guess. ): JC to me is so hard to made friends, so much so when ppl tend to stick with their secondary school friends and so much so tht there are only 10+ ppl in vj who are from Zhonghua.

I wonder how I can continue my journey without my family and friends.

Exams

2009-06-25T11:08:00.004+08:00

E-assessment deadline extended to next Thursday. Damm Lucky. I should really thank H1N1.

I really think I will fail my mid-years.

I woke up and studied ionic equilibrium. Then I realised I know nuts about it. What's with the buffer thingy? I think even if school extends the mid-years for a month, I'll still fail it.

Okay. I've decided (Though everytime i've decided on some things, I will still procrastinate in the end xD). Firstly, I'll quit h&f. I've been thinking about this for a very long time alr. ): It's a little of a struggle to make that decision since h&f ppl are very nice and fun ppl! ;D But come to think of it, if I quit it, I can go back home on Wednesday early and I wouldn't need to do gym duties anymore. Omg, I'm in a dilemma. ):

Secondly, since harmoc practices have been changed to Mon and Thurs, that means I'm officially free on Saturday from next term onwards. Kay. I shall be a super mugger. Me is planning to go mug in the library on Saturday and Sunday from morning till evening. This shall prevent me from indulging in things like blogging. ahahhaha. Hmm, shall jio ppl along to study! ;D

GREAT! What a wonderful Plan! ;D;D;D
But whether I can stick to it... hmm... ;D

Kay, gtg mug alr. I will post sparex camp photo next time. (too lazy now. xD)

Yeeru's Birthday + C13 anniversary Celebrations

2009-06-24T08:34:00.013+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday Yee Ru! and happy belated C13's anniversary! ;D

Woke up in the morning yesterday feelind very crappy (see previous post ;D). Hahhaha. But hey, eventually i still found my gloves, i skated and I stayed overnight at weiting's house. I did nothing I wrote in my previous post. xD

Was supposed to meet Yee Ru at Boon Keng MRT at abt 11.45, since they are meeting at 12pm. Yee Ru and I were discussing if we wanted to meet early, but I suggested meeting later since they might be late? Heh. Walked all the way to buy my super glue (to glue back my specs) first and was late for a few mins. Chatted with yee ru for a while. Very long didn't got to talk to her alr ;D Bused to Boon Keng and while we were walking to Kallang MRT, shihui called and I bluffed her that we've reached. Hahahaha. First time they so punctual. ;D

Bused off to Kallang leisure park. Same place, same location and we celebrated Yee ru's birthday. I was thinking whether I'm wearing the same shirt as last year, i scared if it's the same, then it will be damm malu later if we take photooos!

Started eating the cake (and the cake sucks seriously) Hehe. The rest of the boys started playing with the cake. As usual, i just sat there and see. Lol. But I still tio the cream on my face, omg. Ice-skating! Me was so afraid that my poor leg will be so painful after skating. ): Got in, Siying and Shihui didn't skate and the rest did. I spent 1 hr learning how to skate, cuz I practically forgotten how to skate alr! >

Got into KFC and ate (just like last year) and went into the arcade (just like last year). Yee Ru and Si Ying went off after that (just like last year), while the rest took bus 16 to Dhoby Ghaut (just like last year)! ;D Went Weiting's house to bbq (kay, different from last year), and the ride took damm long. I was standing and half-sleeping throughout the ride. Smelly shihui's face was damm black. And with her ultra small eyes and super dao face, she looked just like a scary monster! ;D;D;D REACHED finally. Eevian was dying to drink bubble tea, but Thomson plaza didn't had. The rest of the guys either went out to buys stuffs or set up the bbq stuffs while me and the girls were nuaing in the living room watching teeev. Damm guilty. But since Pu Yuan doesn't want to switch to channel u, I left halfway and helped them. ;D

BBQ started and cooked lots of food. Was very disappointed since the otah wasn't very nice. I'm looking so forward to it! ):

GHOST STORIES! :D and then watched some teev and the Eevian, shihui, Pu(space)Yuan, Clarence, gary went home. I stayed back cause it's too late alr. Photos!

Kay. No more photos alr. Cause Pu Yuan and shihui went homme. Lol. I forgot to bring my camera along! ): Yeap. Ar yes, Wei Chong came arnd nght which i didn't actually notice. lol. After they reest left, we continue eating! (: The I forgot what happened next alr. Let me think... Ah yes, Wei chong, wei ting, lucas and I gossiped and talk abt other random stuffs while nich and Jk were busying talking secrets (i tink xD). So long didn't have a nice chat with them alr. (: We went in to sit down and continue talking and here comes wei ting's bro and his friend who wanted to cycle to their friend's house at night. Wei Ting initially let him go, but I busybody and ask if he've gotten his mother's permission. Hhahaha. Wei Ting was scolding his brother while she's smiling. Omg. But seriously, I would have slapped him if I'm weiting from the way he talked. xD

Then it's like 2-3 am in the morning? We went to clear the BBQ stuffs, and then washing the floor. Hahahha. I forgot who held the water hose at weiting, but cause the hose was stucked, there's no water. While wei chong went to align the hose propoerly, here came the water and wei Ting was drenched! Damm funny. xD Then they started playing with water. Lucas and I went in to hide while the rest played with water. See, we so clever. (: Watched 10,000BC again and one by one, we went to bathe. After bathing, while we were all nice smelling and dry, Koh Wei Ting that fierce first aider decided to help clear my bruises and she started pressing my colourful bruise on my knee cap. It was damm painful cause it's a big bump and she even resorted using her clenched fist and pressed on it! ): I'm so so so so in pain. Wei Chong took over and pressed as well and then she continued on my other knee which has a smaller bruise. I sweat after their "massaging session". ):

All of us sneaked back into koh's room. Damm shiok, cause got aircon (: Started mass massaging session. Heh, my massaging not bad right! (: Then we just chit-chatted away. Lol. We were supposed to mug can!? ;D Wei Chong slept like a pig, so we just abandoned him and went down to the living room and played tarot cards. All sorts of funny answers whereby some are accurate! :D Did one on C13 and I shall keep the result a secret (:

Soon, it was 6am! Koh wei Ting suggested bringing us for breakfast. I got slapped and pulled by her after i just rested on the sofa. Ate beehoon at the coffeshop and they said I talked crap? Hahahah. Maybe I'll talk crap when I'm very sleepy. ;D Went back and mug. Like we really sriously did mug. Kay, They are damm pro. I just realised i'm so lackng behind in studies than them ): 12++. Was supposed to watch a movie, but we too tired alr, so we just went home (:

Sat on 163 to Toa Payoh. Slept and woke up and soon I reached Toa payoh. Damm scary. Luckily 163 terminates at Toa Payoh Interchange. If not when i woke up, I'll be at dunno where. Transfer to bus 31. Tried very hard not to doze off, but I still did. At last, I woke up at the bus stop before the actual bus stop that I'll be alighting. I'm pro can. :D Home sweet home. I slept for the whole day even though i told myself to perevere on and mug. oh well, that's just me. ;D Nice outing yeah? So long didn't go to chat with them alr (:

Kay. Here's the great news. Mid-years are postponed to 7 July. Aint Victoria Junior College the best jc in Singapore? :D

Shall post all the photos of Sparex camp for the next post. ;D

Bad mood

2009-06-22T10:45:00.004+08:00

Bad mood today. Maybe because I woke up feeling tired and have muscle aches all over me. And then I realised that my spectacles broke for the 123456678th time. The irony thing was it didn't break during the camp, but only when i got home. Tried to super-glued it back but to no avail, and I'm getting very frustrated. Ice-skating I'll probably skip later, cause I can't find my gloves and then i don't think I can skate when my soles still hurts.

Most probably I wouldn't stay over today, because I'm in a bad mood, i'm tired, and I want to mug. it's again irony that ppl don't believe I'll fail my mid-years. Come on, I didn't study at all for the holiday and it's not i don't want to study. I don't have time. I'm damm frustrated and anxious now and I dunno what to do. I'm supposed to finish Maths by tmr, Chem by Thurs and Physics and economic by Sun. Anyway, I'll think I would just give up on econs since I dun think i can finish physics within 3 days. And yes, my group members for pw insisted me to compile the gpp and sent them by Sunday (yesterday). I did that before my camp, which is on Wednesday, cause i knew i would be too tired to do pw on Sunday. The best part is, they read and did nothing. If they just want to read, WHY CAN'T THEY JUST TELL ME TO COMPILE EVERYTHING AFTER THE MID YEARS! They said they wanted to meet up and do the rest of the Gpp, but they didn't, and i received nothing. -.- Are they treating me like a fool?

I just want to mug now. Like seriously. And i'm so going to mug for the rest of the year. I don't want to risk dropping any H2 subjects and retaining for a year. I want to get myself out of this Singapore's screwed up jc education.

Anyway, ignore this blog post because i'm writing this post in a super extremely foul mood.

Sparex Camp

2009-06-21T20:43:00.002+08:00

Muscle aches, bruises, blisters and sores. (:

Sparex camp 2009 finally ended. ;D Hmm. I shall blog what happens day by day, but I don't think this will be a super ultra looong post since I'm suffering frm stm! I don't think i can remember what happened actually! ;D

Day One
Reached Boon Lay station and then lunched with vj tkd peeps (: Gathered back after lunch and got into our groups. Haha. My group leaders are willian, wen en, celestine and Daniel (who came on the 3rd day). Got grouped with Stephanie, Hong Aik (aka Joshua!) and eric. Damm lucky, cause Seph's my classmates and Hong aik and Eric are ppl I can talk with. The rest of the ppl are Wen jing, Wei Jing, Wei Qi, Yi Kai and zhi hao? Actually i can only rememeber their names at the 3rd day. hehe. And yes, my group name is SHINIGAMI. Cool right! Took a bus to NTU from the int, and got to see their compound. So cool, they need to take bus cause it's too big. All the groups settled in AR3 for ice-breaking sessions. We were supposed to read out every single names of the particpants . If we failed to do so, we have to do forfeit. I really really dun like this game, cause I've got stm and I can't remember names! =/ But luckily, Brendon was beside me. He damm pro can, and basically he whispered all the names to my ear. ;D Wet games, training and dinnered. Training was quite light during the first day? I can't really remember what we do. Haha. I think is the inroduction of basic kicks and then we practiced them. I think for all the vj junior belts ppl, we can't really do our turning kicks very well, cause we didn't spar before and what we tried to do was to kick with the ball of foot and not with the instep of our foot. Hmm, then i forgotten what happened next alr. Erm, ah yes, we went out for dinner!

Day Two
2.55km run. Amazingly, I can actually catch-up with the rest and finished it. Sense of satisfaction, cause I'm really not good at running! ;D Breakfast and then intensive training. Basically trained on kickings and got introduced to some of the offensive and defensive kicks. Then I realised even though I'm quite tall (Heh, I'm 1.70m can ;D), but my kicking range is extremely short as compared to my height. It's like my opponent has to stand within half the mat's distance from me, then i can kick him. If not, I'll miss xD. Did some circuit sparing, meaning we spared with different opponent and changed every few mins. First opponent is Jing Ming. He kicked straight into my GROIN cause he's not doing turning kick but front kick! Very painful ): Then Elton came and cause he's kicking distance is very far as compared to mine, I moved very close to him. hhahaha. Then he just kick kick kick, but cause when I'm close to him, his leg couldn't reached to the front of my body but at my buttocks there, so my buttocks got kicked instead! ): Then lastly, I spared with a very aggressive and with my small built, urm, i surely got thrashed! ;D and he crashed into me and kicked my knee. There's just something I really want to say. Although I may look like I'm weak, soft or whatever, I would only rest when I really can't take the pain anymore. I admit I'm very scared of being hit and the pain associated with the impact, but throughout the whole circuit sparring, I really tried my best. When I got kicked at my knee, I basically slumped down at that injuried site and its really so painful that I can't continue, so i limped back to rest. Then this Ntu guy came forward and check if i'm okay and said something like "this type of injuries we normally just continue sparing and so on..." and all those sentences that implied I'm not trying hard enough. I really get demoralised instead of being inspired when he told me those sentences.

Next is trial sparring. Got to paired up with Brendon. We are the last group to spar. Quite an experience actually, cause when we spar, we can't wear spectacles, so basically, I just sort of see nothing, cause my degree's 800. hahaha. When the game started, we stood there without any movement for a few seconds, cause we were both playing defensive and we were waiting for each other to attack. And I kinda laugh after a few seconds cause it's very awkward. I didn't really do a lot, but I tried to aim and kick with my limited eyesight (xD) and its really sort of cool to have a feeing of that adrenaline rush. But Brendon's kicks though are successive (like piak piak piak), but they aren't very accurate. But nonetheless I got scared and I went siam, siam, siam. Damm funny ;D In the end, I lost. Score was 3-2. The comforting thing wasn't because he's brown belt and of a higher belt level, but because I really tried my best. (: Opponent coach said I'm too tensed up and rigid and so even though my kicks were fast, I can't deliever it well. Well, I think those were just comforting words? (: Shifu's training after dinner. Were quite tough, not like that of sir's. But, It's really a different experience. And i realised what the guys shouted were heir senior's name! But their shouts were dammcool! Like there's "poh ting", "pa eh", "pai seh", Hhaha. All sorts of different funny shoutings. I'm like suggesting to the rest I shall shout "boon lay!" when i kicked. But i didn't of course. xD

Day Three
Basically we did less training (: Amazing race! Got to places like Lau Pa Sat (played shi zi lu kou), then Chinatown market (find the place of the photos given to us and take photos with us in the photos). All quite tiring, but quite fun la. We sneaked into 7 eleven and tried to cheat the gls that we wanted to buy drinks but we went to buy bears for the gls instead. Wei Jing's bag can actually put in all 4! ;D Third station's at somerset. We have to do our poomsae pattern at orchard road!!! OMG! People are staring la, and I saw someone fliming us when we did our pattern. Did the yellow-tip pattern with steph, yikai and wei Jing. Were told to repeat cause our timing weren't the same, we talked and laughed because we were too embarassed. xD Fourth station at the Merlion. Celestine dammmm pro! We have to teach a stranger how to do a kick and flim him doing it. Celestine actually could communicated with a visitor from Japan in Japanese and the visitor actually did the kicks for us! Cool! ;D Last station back at NTU. Have to do stunts like wht those gymnast did and everyone have to do one kind. I'm so guilty, cause i did the easiest! Mine was like jumped up in the air, stretched the arms out and touched the toes with my fingers. =/

Stretching exercises after dinner? I don't really remember. Hahhaa. The strectching exercise were very difficult. Like splitting, toes touching the ground with the front body facing the ceiling and others. I'm good at stretching my thigh muscles. I can clamped my feets together and lean all the way forward down. Sense of sastisfaction eh! (: I remembered there's this sick excercise we did that we have to pull our limbs as far as possible (splitting), then leaning your upper body downards as far as possible. Then we do a push on the ground (like push up) but we must move from one end of the map to the other. xD Consultation with gls and try outs. Trained till one something and we went to sleep. Must really thank William and celestine for giving me some good tips as how to counter. Cause I myself ain't those aggressive fighters, i can only do defensive. ;D

Day Four
Woke up in the morning and then we knew who we will be fighting with. OMG. I was paired with ren jie (i think that's his name? Hmm). He's like the damm strong fighter from hwa chong and I've saw him sparred before. Damm fast, damm hard, damm aggressive. I was like so afraid? Then gls gave us tips as to how to fight our opponents and from the suggestions my gls gave, I think there's really nothing I could do. I'm not his match. Hahhahaa. Actually I'm really afraid even before I knew who's my opponent. That's because during the trial sparring, all the guys were very aggressive and although their kicks may not be accurate, but at least they dare to execute their kicks. But I have to really thank Jin Ming cause he really talked me into being more aggressive because in vj we don't spar and this might just be the last time I'm sparring. Why not just gave whatever i have and just do my very best. Noticed a lot of people and realised they've just gave in whatever they had. Even Jin Ming. Although he got a lot of foul because he kept on pushing his opponent, but he really gave what he've got.

Finally, it's my turn. Listened very carefully to celestine's comments and got onto the mat. Wore the head guards and started. I didn't know what to shout, so i just shouted "ush!" Damm scary. Because I knew ren jie's very aggressive, he will bound to attack first. So I'll just be defensive a bit, and wait for him to attack first. Finally he came and as expected he gave 3 quick and fast kick "piak, piak, piak". Normally I'll just siam, siam, siam. But everyone's telling me to be aggressive! So I told myself to just do whatever i could. I slide back, then I gave a long right turning kick. Then I hugged him. But he's skillfull, he punched me to get away and kicked me. Then we just continued and I don't know why once i saw an opportunity, i kicked. Even when he kicked me, I tried to just kick him while he's doing so. But my kicks weren't strong. There wasn't a loud "puck" sound. First round's up. Score: 0-0. Went back to Celestine. She said I couldn't just stop after one kick, cause my opponent will then have the chance to kick me. Second round started. I tried. I use a right long turning kick and then follow by a short left turning kick. Felt the impact. This time round, i hugged him. But i totally just pulled him towards my body (which is a foul xD) so he can't push me away and kick me. When the referee came close, I'll just raise my hands up so he can't see that i'm fouling. A little bit of cheat la. xD Second round ended. Score: 0-0. Third round started. We both were very tired already, because we kept on hugging each other, which is a sign of tiredness. The adrenline rush was still with me. I did whatever i could to attack and also siam. But because my range's shorter than him, when i close in towards him, he'll tend to hit my butt. Now it hurts a lot! ): Third round ended. Score: 0-0. Now we came to the sudden death. The first person who scored the first point wins. Celestine said this is a waiting game. I have to wait for him to attack and when there's a chance, I can strike. I eventually lost, not because he hit my body, but when he tried to close in and kick me, i block using my arm, but there's a loud sound! So the judges thought he really kicked me, but in fact, he didn't. But nevermind la (:

Bowed to each other and shook hands. I really like the part when I shake hands with my opponent, maybe because it's a form of respect and I'll just said good job and shook his hand firmly. Though I've lost, I really felt very relieved and satisfied because I've did my very best. I've gave everything out, even though this time round my kicks aren't as strong as when I'm sparring with Brendon. I've to thank Celestine and Willian, who gave me all those valuable tips and all those ppl who supported me. I really don't know who, but the vj girls and Jin Ming shouted quite loud and I could really hear them during the match. I'm very appreciative of that. (: Went back and was quite relieved that a lot of them told me I've done a very good job, like steph, jaz and lin li. Was very heartening to hear that people commented that I've done well, especially when ren jie was considered quite a strong competitor. But I knew i didn't do very well, cause i got 0 for the 3 rounds meant my kicks weren't strong enough. But nonetheless, I'm satisfied. (:

Break camp finally! Went Jurong Point mos burger and have a group lunch. Feeling was very relaxed, cause I'm going home! ;D Took some photos and celestine took quite a lot of photos of yikai sleeping? Hahaha. damm funny photos. Went off first with the vj ppl and home sweet home! Generally, I've enjoyed the camp, because I've went out of my comfort zone and it gave me an introduction of sparring. Though the trainings were tough at times, but I think they are really necessary and essential for sparring. And yes, my group roxs! Although the vj ppl didn't really talk a lot with the hwa chong ppl, but they are really very friendly ppl! ;D And I really hope like we can still say hi if we met each other during future competitions. May or may not get to learn sparring in the future in vj, cause I heard they are pushing for it? But I'm nt sure also. Jin Ming and I actually already agreed on learning sparing ourslves from sir even before the camp. But i think Jing Ming wanted to go train at NTU? I myself will prefer sir's training actually. ;D

I don't know. Wait till I've passed my mid-years first. ;D

Week 3

2009-06-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

Week 3 turns out to be a wasted week as well.
Studied Ap/GP/summation and was only able to grasp like 3/4 of it?

Gp lessons today. All the boys pon it except Julian, Bob and I. Told Jasmine and Hui Xin that We just need 10 mins to discuss our pw. They don't wanna listen and so I have to wait for like 3 hrs in sch- doing nothing before we could discuss pw because they have lit lessons. -.- And after the torturous 3 hrs of waiting, what we discuss was something we could discuss in msn (which they have earlier blatantly rejected using msn -.-) I've long told them what we have to discuss is either we change the topic or we imprve on the current topic. Why do we have to meet to make a decision? So, we've decided to change the topic and used my PI eventually. That's what we've have discussed (after my 3 hr long of waiting for them). You see, sometimes people just don't like to listen to other people's suggestion.

And, if I were them, I would never ever allow my friend to wait for me for 3 hrs without doing nothing. That's so.. cruel.

Anyway, I've just finished my GPP. I did half of it myself and the rest, I'll just leave it to the 4 of them. If they can't even do that, then I've got really nothing to say. Project work is sometimes just so unfair.

Sparex's camp tmr. Heard its a physically demanding camp?! we will be sleeping in the hall (supposed to stay in hostel, but ntu's hostel under renovation??!!! ): Hahahah. After the camp, I've got tons of things to mug. I only did studied math during the holidays. Yes, the 3 topics I've mentioned earlier. How could I squeeze 4 subjects into a week? I wonder.

Gtg sleep alr. (and yes, pimples outbreak is irritating ): )

National Pomsae Championship

2009-06-15T17:32:00.007+08:00

Woke up at arnd 6.30am in the morning and left house at 7.30am after foraging for my notes for some time. Haha. Thought I would be late, since we were supposed to meet at 8am at Khatib Mrt station. But i didn't! Oh man, i love bus 857. I can reach Yishun from Boon Keng arnd 35 mins. cool! ;D

The competition was at Yishun Sports hall. I think it was so much more frightening than the inter-jc one, cause there's so many ppl! Lol. Warmed-up with Jin Ming like one hour before the competition. We were nearly disqualified, cause we can't find the regstration counter, plus the fact that there were so unfriendly aunty personnel there. Eventually we registered and it was our turn. The first 2 competitors were like super zai la. Damm scary. Heh. Finally its my turn. Actually, I've got totally no impression of what I've did during the competition. I just remembered I've finished the pattern! Hahahha. This time round, the results were recorded manually, no tv, we've got to check our score at a specific place. I got 6.9! 4/5 for accuracy and 2.9 for presentation. As compared to my 6.23 during inter-jc, that was really a great news for me! ;D;D;D Even though i didn't got into the finals, I'm satisfied (:

Jin Ming got the lowest and he's a little bit disappointed? But I think he've done a really good job as well, since he've only trained for 1 week. ;D But I think he's okay after a while and we joke around also. lol. I call him champion, cuz last time he kept on calling me second when I got the second last position in inter-jc. LOL!

Wanted to go home at 4, but Jin Ming said 5. So i wait till 5 and he said he wanted to see the white-belt girls team. So I waited and we left at 8pm- even though the white belt girls team haven't even compete. xD Headache throughout the whole waiting process (i don't know why also) and read my notes for a while. But I din really read them. I brought a huge stack of them to ease my sense of guilt =/ Hahah. Did walk around with Jin Ming and talk to other ppl like Lance from Marist. Hahaha. Jin Ming really wanted to spar can. He was asking lance lots of questions about sparing. We went to ask sir whether he could teach us sparing and he said we can come down to Kembagan during Fridays. Free of charge someone! Sir's a nice guy. ;D

And yes. There was this part where a woman (I don't know what illness she's suffering from), she couldn't stand properly but she still braved on and took part in the competition. We gave her a big round of applause before the competition and she started. She needed a person to hold her at the back, so she would not fall. Halfway through, she forgot her steps and paused there for a few second. Then the audience begun clapping again to encourage her further. She finally remembered and finished her pattern. Her score was 7.2, and the audience clapped loudly once agan for her after the score was shown. It was so touching!!! ):

Then there's also this old lady. I think she's like 70 years old? She was doing the black belt individual. Omg. Everyone was cheering for her as well! Her moves were impressive! And she scored 7.2! ;D

Okay. Lastly. I just want to say all those small kids doing pomsae were extremely adorbable! They are really very very very cute. I flimed down one of the small boy boy doing his pomsae. So cute! :D

Though I din won anything this time round, but still good job guys! :D

Monday
Left the house hurriedly because I'm late for school! Maths extra lessons were supposed to start at 10.30am. I started running towards the bus stop, cause the time was 9.55am then. I've got a feeling the bus might come at 10am, so i ran and indeed when i reached the bus stop, my bus came! So accurate leh. ;D Reached. Realised maths will only start at 11.30am! Omg. Melissa told the whole class the wrong info. Maths lessons and then go home. Nothing much.

Sparex's coming in 2 days time. Hope it will be fun! :D

跟自己相处时，才发现不认识自己。。。不知道该怎么跟自己相处。

I like taking the bus at night, when there's so little people on the bus, when the aircon's the strongest, when the traffic's the smoothest, when it's so quiet that I could only hear the swirling sound of the engine. Maybe what i needed was some quiet moment. & i thought. Six months of jc life, what had I achieved?

I held on tightly to the stack of notes. The more I read, the more I'm afraid of them, cause I realised they are so distant to me.
I read through the inbox of my handphone and I realised most of the newer messages were from my secondary school friends. I suddenly remembered I didn't have the handphone numbers of some of my JC friends.
Classmates are just classmates. We could met each other without saying a mere hi, without talking and passing by without striking a conversation.

Lovely. I didn't achieve much.
Sometimes I realised the more i hoped for some things to happen, they don't. Maybe god thinks that I'm too greedy.

Am i asking too much? I wonder.

Imagine, if...

I wonder why listening to love songs don't work anymore.

Disgusted

2009-06-14T00:29:00.002+08:00

I'm so utterly disgusted by myself.
I did nothing today even though i knew I've got not enough time to study.
Tomorrow's competition. Shall bring some things to study since it will end like 8pm?

Procrastination is evil.

First Aid Course + job

2009-06-12T12:31:00.006+08:00

"What did sir teach today ar?"
Frankly speaking, I'm really pissed off when I first saw this msg, but I'm okay after a while. Hahaha. Even before this msg, he kept on calling me (despite me rejecting all his calls) after I've sms-ed him that sir won't be coming for training tmr. And the first thing he asked when i call him back was "why sir wouldn't be coming tmr?" Erm. Because he's busy? And then after a few hours, he sent this msg to me? Maybe I'm overly sensitive, but you wouldn't really lose out when you've missed one training session? How am I suppose to reply you?

Hmm. Maybe i'm really too sensitive. But well, that's me. ;D

Training today was at Kembangan. Everything's the same as previous trainings. But my feet hurts alot this time round, maybe because of the hot sand yesterday. xD Was trying to laugh at Jamien just now, cuz she has to take the mrt to city hall, transfer to Dhoby Ghaut and finally to Sengkang. I commented that I would have finished my dinner when she got home! Smsed her when i was halfway reaching home to realise the train's Jamien's travelling on was at Boon Keng! Should have taken the mrt with her (aka Zhi Ning), can reach home faster summore! :D

Competition's in 2 days' time! Aim is to get like 6.5-7.0 points. I don't want to get 6.23 again! ): I've got a feeling I wouldn't do very well? But anyway, Jiayou everyone! ;D Those who got medals must treat me sumthing kay? ;D

Anyway, my schedule tells me I'm seriously lagging behind in my revisions. I'm supposed to finish all my revision on Chemistry, Physics and Mathematics before Sparex camp. So the last week of hols i can revise on economics. But then, i haven't even finish one chapter of physics! ): Oh well, I'm buring mid-night oil everyday from now. And, yes. Project work. Pw is very irritating. I don't like it. >( Moreover, my grp's gpp is seriously dangerous. I don't understand why they still wanted to do Disadvantaged children in singapore when it has nothing to do with emergency? It's very obvious that it ain't an emergency! But because I'm really very very busy these few weeks, so i din really relay my views to them. But I shall just settle that before sparax camp! :D:D:D I really got the feeling that I will be doing a lot for pw (no offence), just a feeling. ;D What I think I'll do first is to persuade them to change topic, then we try to do another Gpp using another person's pi. Then i will complete the whole GPP by myself, and while I'm away from sparex, the 4 of them can work on the written report, which is like additional stuffs added to the GPP. That's why i say PW is lame. MOE thinks that jc students have nothing better to do. ;D

Anyway, My ideal job in the future is to be psychologist! But the results I have searched were very disappointing. ): The problem is that to be a psychologist, I must finish my master in psychology, but i heard it's quite hard to get a chance to study for master in psycho. Ended up I have a bachelor degree in psycho, then I'll end up as a counsellor? Even if i get to be a psychologist, I will have to study like 6 years plus additional internship. The basic pay is like 2ooo plus? My father have to pay so much for uni education for me just to earn 2000 plus? Passion vs pragmatism. But i think i will really like the job of a psychologist. I don't like numbers, so i would nvr ever go into business and finance. Science is fun, but engineering to me is very very boring.

I shall do well in A levels first. ;D

Long post! Wouldn't be blogging these few days! ;D

Happy Anniversary! ;D

2009-06-11T23:05:00.009+08:00

Hahahaha. Late post! All smelly shihui's fault. She showed me all the hokkien youtube videos, then after that i went on watching comedy clips in youtube! (and upload all these photos takes like donkey years!) Okay. Back to topic ;D

Went to school very early in the morning and saw nobody at the usual place. Sense something seriously wrong and sms everyone i knew. Lol. They've changed the training timing to 11.30am and nobody told me about it. They were supposed to relay the msg, i think? (Kay, as commented, i'm not popular, so no one msg me -.-) Lol. Nevermind la, cuz this is the second time i got pang sei, so nt so bad! haha. Bused home and return school after i've eaten, cuz i din want to wait in sch for 3 hours. ;D Training's a little funny today. We were like discussing what size the groin guard should the guys order? Hahahaha. I was saying I should order XL. hehe. In the end Elton and Jing Min ordered like L? (Their's are big wor! xD) I ordered M only la! Then sir told us he's also competing in the nationals this sunday. He will be participating in the mix pair group. Then we ask sir whether he could get the champion. He said, "I think not possible, my partner is very slow". Omg, we were bursting out our laughter. ;D

Rushed off at 1.20pm. The bus was jammed at the suntec area, so I'm late. Really Sorry! =/ Reached, bought drinks, take bus guides and took the bus to sentosa with Jingkai, Shihui, Eevian, Si Ying, gary and Wei chong. hahahha. We reached there and played volleyball first. The sand is super, ultra hot. SiYing and Eevian are hiding in the shade, me is hopping like some crazy ppl, and Gary can just stand there like it's not hot at all. I don't know how to play volleyball! So just anyhow play. =/ Haaha. But we later gave up on volleyball and played captain's ball instead. ;D

Lucas came half-way and left halfway. His cca-mates call him idiot ar? I dunno wad they call him. Just some crude word. Lol. Got really really tired after a few games. Maybe cause there's tkd in the morning. And I got tau-poked by the guys. So damm scary. Me was suffocating when i got taupok. Like really. lol. Next time, pls taupok someone who has more fats can! ;D The rest got into the water after we got bored with monkey (; Shihui was screaming and screaming, but she still got into the water eventually. Damm funny. Eevian, siying and I were busying building our sand castle with a sharp tip and a huge base. Damm nice can, we are pro sand-castle builders! I din get down into the water cuz i din brought an extra undergarment (which is on purpose ;D).

Haha! Eevian's first "nude" shot! xD Lol. She's wearing clothes, but the angle doesn't shows it!

Heh. Our solid sand castle. Beautiful eh? (:

Them having Spa. xD

Trained back to harbourfront and have dinner. The same one we had last time when we went to Sentosa. But i dunno why, the "yuan yang" not very nice! Haha. Si Ying and I bet on What Clarence's gonna wear later. I bet black top, brown shorts and uncle slippers, then Si ying bet on white top, black shorts and sneakers? Hehhh. We both lost! ;D

Evidence leh! ;D Ate the "maggie mee" again. haha! Eevian is very scary when she's hungry! ;D Then, dunno who said "摸下面(碗的下面）就不冷了". Sound damm wrong can! ;D

and lastly, happy Anniversary, C13! :D
I looked back at all my past messages in my inbox and saw all those wonderful messages you all have sent! Even though we are not in the same schools now, we shared wonderful memories together! Friends are those whom we can sit down together, not saying a word and walk away feeling that we've understand what the other felt and what memories we've shared.

<3

Facebook! ;D

2009-06-07T13:24:00.005+08:00

People, go do my facebook quiz! :D

Haha. I spent my whole morning on facebook and I shall finish up the tagged notes if i got time later. And, I seriously have to study already :(

First aid course for 3 days, and then Sparex camp next week. I can't find time to study. I don't want to fail my mid-years. So right now, i shall go revise my Physics. I'm a good boy (:

And peektures from Ann Yi. (:

And, C13 anniversary in 4 days time <3
I don't want a happy ending, cuz its the end of happiness. I want a happy beginning (:

SLV + Kbox + Taekwondo Training + NHSS

2009-06-06T19:05:00.015+08:00

A whole week full of events. I shall pen them down together in a single post (:

Wednesday, SLV!
There's some last minute changes, so Gordon and I became station master for group 4! Haha. Rushed to the MRT station cuz I thought I'm late, but guess what, I saw Jasmine, Valerie and Yan Lin sitting at the bench in City hall station. So, we sort of waited for a while, then we decided to go to Lim Bo Seng memorial there cuz it was kinda late. Met Cass at Mac, so we sat down and then came the rest. Got over the place first because the ice's melting! :D

And, my thunderous cough sort of scare everyone off! xD Soon, it started to rain and we went hiding under the bridge. Got the meet my team members. Hehe. I can 100% guarantee that my team members are all very cute and enthu, especially this girl- who didn't want to tell me her name and she even called me MARTIN la. Oh my god. Haha. I just called her PCK la. :D

SO we played some ice-breakers games because of the rain. Like Concentration, My 50 cents, tuki tuki. And we started moving to our first station when the rain stopped. First station, Merlion! We played the very lame polar bear game. The catcher game. It really feels different as a facilitator as compared to a particpant! (:

We moved on to the next station at cavanah bridge. There's this disgusting game whereby 2 ppl have to transfer a cotton wool damped with jam from one side of a bridge to another. I really think this game is very yulky. xD

Although we've only managed to transfer 4 cotton buds, but the girls tried their best yeah? :D See how hard they've tried? I like this photo (: Shall send it for competition if there's a suitable category for it (:

Carried on to our next station! Station 7, which is my station originally. This game is very cool! Using a straw, you suck a small piece of paper up and the next person must suck the paper using the straw and pass it on to the last person. I played with them halfway because the game is very fun! And we play cheated halfway as well. hahaha!

Then we moved on to station one and do this game whereby the girls have to try to flip a piece of mahjong paper over when stepping on it. Damm difficult can, and the game master gave us like so little points? ):

Then we went back to the bridge there for our last 2 stations. Some ultra lame games, regarding skipping, so i shall not write them! Begged caleb and Jun Liang for more points cuz we were losing! Caleb wanted to give like 1800 points la. But Jun Liang rejected the idea and gave us 1650 instead! Aiyo. So my group got the second last? Damm sad ):

We waited like 20 mins for this game, so everyone looks ultra bored. xD

My group got the (opps i've forgot! >.<) award. NOT UGLIEST GROUP FACILITATOR AWARD! >( and we were given chopsticks as presents can. Hahhahahaahaha. :D

Class Photo! :D

That's all for SLV! :D
Generally, I think it's very fun to be a facilitator! Especially so when the guides in my groups are all very friendly ppl. Though i know they are very shy and reserved, but they have put in their very best in all the games! That's very commendable! Great being their facilitator! :D:D:D
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Thursday, KBOX with C13! :D
Supposed to meet them at 1.30pm, but I left hse at 1.00pm. Guess what, the bus uncle drove so fast that I reached AMK at 1.30pm. Hahahaha! Walked past Clarence without seeing him cuz I'm searching for my bus guides. xD Walked around and saw Eevian and we went basement to shop before Lucas came. Then Shihui and Jingkai came.

Went Kbox after everyone reached. My voice is so shitty ): Lucas quite pro eh? ;D He shouted all the way throughout the kbox session! We din take peeeeektures! Awwww. Next time! ;D

Friday, Studying session with Po-Hsun and GuoPei
Met Po-hsun at Mac arnd noon. He booked the seat with the plug so that he can use is laptop. I wanted to go mac because I can eat mac value lunch, and I can get a free cup with a upsize! :D:D:D I've got 3 cups with 3 different colours alr! *sense of satisfacion :D Anyway, din do much also, which is kinda expected. When Guo Pei came, he kindly helped me with the NHSS thingy. The proposal has to be submitted tmr and my members either haven't give me anything or what they've submitted weren't up to standard. Lucky Guo Pei's there to provide me with ideas! :D

Rushed off to Kembangan CC for Taekwondo training. Saw sir, and felt a little guilty. Trained with the rest and wasn't that bad because nationals were just a few weeks ago. Hhaha. It was very embarassing because when sir's checking our patterns for the last time, I lost my balance after i kick! And one of the black-belts, who was also looking at us commented: "Is this (what they doing) a funny version?". =O

Sir finally asked me what position I've got for the competition. Haha. Bottom second, I said. He said its okay, and told me where i did wrongly and encouraged me. So, it kinda lifted my spirits up :D And, the small cute boy is sir's son! We were discussing if Sir's married when the boy shouted Daddy and sir replied :D

Trained home with Jessica and Stephanie after that. (:

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Saturday, NHSS
I slept at like 3 am in the morning on Friday. That's because I'm still waiting for the rest of my member to send in their proposals. But sadly to say, they didn't. So i just have to combine Sheena's and my proposal to form our finalised proposal. Woke up in the morning feeling really lethargic. Log into my email account and check for any new proposal, but there was none. ): Comission wants us to reach there by 11am, but I knew we can't enter the venue before 11.45am, so I left my house around 11am. Hehe(: Reached city hall, but I can't find swissotel hotel! Worst still, guo pei told me the wrong direction la. Waited for a while at the lobby before proceeding up.

Gathered at the 4th floor and was smsing my vice group leader where she was. Cause we didn't met each other before and so we can't recognise each other :D Finally saw her, and hey, she look like Kelly from the campus superstar! And that's what my other members commented as well! :D Registered and we begun to do our mindmap, which have to be presented later. Soon, all the members arrived and we went into the ballroom? (I don't know what it is called! =x) And we take photos! (:

Shenna, Beatrice, Lecia, Kevin, Me, Edwin, Ann Yi

Unglam shot! (:

I like this shot! (:

Hahahha. Okay, my group members are damm nice people can. (: Shenna's very friendly!, and then I know Beatrice and Lecia cause they are from Zhonghua, Kevin from VJ!, and edwin and Ann Yi are sociable as well! :D

Okay. So the summit started. So basically there's a row of seats for all exceutive councillors to sit on. I felt so uneasy, cause it look so professional! From other people's view, i may be jotting down notes of those presenting on stage, but I'm actually drawing cartoons on the paper given. (: And, because there's not much people posing the question, I was asked to pose one question to the house. Lucky i did hear what the person was addressing beforehand. :D

Finally it's our turn! Shenna and I went up, and shenna started the presentation first, followed by me. Seriously, 5 mins wasn't enough to finish our presentation la, and the house ask questions like "define cyberbullying"??? Anyway, we didn't won, but it's still a nice job done people! :D

Heh. Prize giving ceremony after all the resolutions have been presented. Then photo taking sessions! We took many many many photos! These are all from my cameras! It's been a previlege to work with the New media council! :D:D:D

I shall post all those photos up when I got them from them (:
And, I'm really deprive of sleep now. I shall really catch some sleep. (:
Nitez!

NHSS

2009-06-05T09:54:00.005+08:00

Saturday practices for harmoc continues even though they've promised that it will be cancelled once concert is over. Can't help it, cuz we've a performance at the Esplanade concourse. Hahahaha. (: H&f also promises one cca day, but it popped up gym duties half-way.

Aren't all ccas like that? (:

I'll blog what happens these few days tmr. Rather busy now. (:

Happy birthday!

2009-06-03T19:45:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Aunty Maggie! :D
Nearly forgot to wish her happy birthday because of SLV today! ):
And my aunt takes good care of me! :D:D:D

And I shall blog later when I've got the photos of SLV. I only had a few here with me. (:

I really have no idea why i could be a victorian. When there's a lot more people cleverer than me who didn't got into vj? I ain't clever. I've got trouble with my studies. And, because my parents have such high expectations of me, and my relatives whom innocently thought that I'm clever, I'm much more stressed up now. Without all these driving force, I might try for MI instead.

I heard this in the MRT today (I swore i heard it accidentally)
"Would you feel lonely at times?"
"Erm, sometimes yes?"
"And why?"
"Its like you will feel sick going out with all guys only."
"Then go out with your girlfriends?"
"I mean, i feel a little awkward".
"oh. Nevermind, you got me here".

And, First prize for today's 4D "2612"- last 4 digits of my handphone number.

Irritated

2009-06-02T22:18:00.003+08:00

I got so irritated by small, trivial things today because I'm very busy and tired. ):
And, so many things have to go through my mind and I'm so scared i might left out a few of those things that I have to do. =/

And yup, blogskin's done! I took like dunno how many pictures of the bear with my "black toilet bowl and basin". Haha. Very cute right! :D And the small picture on the left of every blogpost is created with the help of my sis. Thanks! I promised I will thank her in my blog, and here it goes. Haha. Can't find any decent photo to put and this is the photo i took with my sis. She crop herself off and resize to that size. :D

SLV tmr. Can't take a lot of pictures cuz gordon and I are now facilitators instead of station masters! ):

Envious and jealous. Two negative describing words.
I told myself I don't need them, but what can i do if they came looking for me?
"Cuz God has had other plans for me" is just a way to comfort ourselves.
I hate to live in denial.

SLV run! :D

2009-06-02T11:26:00.008+08:00

Heh. Less agitated edited version of the SLV post (:
Less agitated because my mood is way different than last time when I'm writing this post (:

Firstly, i don't know why everyone in s63 are facils and only gordon and I are game masters together with s65. But I'm perfectly okay with that :D That's not what i wanted to rant about. Today's dry run is supposed to familiarise the facils with the route. I don't know why they wanted the station masters to tag along? Facilitators shouldn't know where station masters are standing! They should find them together with their group! :D:D:D If they knew where we are, then it's not considered an amazing race! Hahahha. Gordon and I shall hide from them tmr. (:

Still coughing bady now. It's so sore that I kept on coughing! I'm very very sick ): Reached City hall MRT around 11.40am. I thought i was late, so i ran! In the end, i wasn't. The S65 ppl reach like 12.05am?? Damm disgusting leh. 35 mins late. So we began exploring the route and take peektures on the way!

Shermaine tagged Yan Lin as the Merlion in the facebook for "Idon'tknowwhatreason". Haha!

S63 group picture! :D

I like this picture! Xing Chen and I pouting the lips. Bob doesn't want do it la! ):

Hahaha. I think we feel like visitors can! And we think we are crazy, cuz the sun is supper ultra hot! The s65 are all waiting in the shade. Shermaine was like signalling them to come here and take photo with us. And, i suggested that when they reached here, we told them "let's go!". But anyway, i didn't say that la! Okay, so here's the group pictures with the S65s.

Walked back to cityhall Mrt station and i zao first, cuz I'm meeting Po-hsun at boon keng Mac. Yes, yes, yes. The picture at the "don't know what place". Oh man, I'm such a lousy Singaporean! :D

Met po-husn and he passed me the NHSS ticket I told him to print. haahhaha. Chit-chatted, leave the mac and Yee Ru saw Po-hsun and I at the bus stop! Haha! She called me and i kept searching for her in the bus. Lol! The bus too dark alr la, but i still found her in the end!

Went back home and settle some stuffs. The NHSS ppl are way too much. They wanted my group to finish our proposal in one day- which is tmr. That's like crazy. Anyway, I've got SLV tmr, so i can't go. And my members ain't free either. So I've just messaged the ic and told him "after serious discussion with my members, we have decided not to attend the meeting tmr". Hahaha. He hasn't replied, and even if he does, we shall pon it either! I mean, he's very lousy leh, he din do anything at all and he expect my group to do all those work and at the end of the day, he's going to claim all the contributions. I shall only pass him the proposal on Monday morning, which is the day of the summit itself. haha!

(edit, he replied! -"but if you guys assure me that ull come up with a resolution, then i'm fine if you do not come. I think you should send the resolution by Friday night because I need to see it too"). What's with the usage of the word "assure"? Is he trying to say we ain't doing anything? And, how am i supposed to assure him? "I think you should". Are you trying to impose your authority here? Oh my god. I think because he had slacked too much, so much so that he doesn't know why I had to pass him the proposal only on sat itself. That's because a lot of member are having school stuffs and so they can't possible hand in to me on Friday. So i gave them till Friday night and I will burn mid-night oil and collate all the information and do the final touch-up. This guy is the ultimate slacker- just have to sit-back relax and collect the proposal!

Anyway, got the news that there's a national pomsae taekwondo competition on the 14th. I wanted to try the guys team with Jin Ming and elton. But elton's not interested, so we can't form a team. Right now, I'm joining individual and I'm quite worried? Cuz I'm afraid I'll get kicked out again and then got the lousiest score among all? That will be damm scary. Chatted with Jill on msn last night and really thanks a lot for the encouragement! Jiayou everyone! :D Hope everyone can win something and i can at least go into the semis? =/ Probably will jio Jin Ming out to train if possible, if not i shall train at home. hahahhah.

And, yes, I'm changing blogskin soon! Not i made one, but I liked it very much. Still searching for a picture to replace the original one. Damm excited. okay, gtg, posting more pictures tmr for SLV! :D

And, Explosive by music comm! I like this song very much! I think they are damm good! It's so hard to play this song man. (:

It's been a very long time since I had such feelings. I told myself to get busier, so I will forget about them. At least, temporary.

Resonance XI- Serenade of Inspiration!

2009-06-01T01:10:00.016+08:00

Serenade of Inspiration!

Sorry for the late post! Was very busy sorting out SLV, NHSS and PW stuffs the whole day. Anyway, reached school at around 7.30am for the technical run on Saturday. Frankly speaking, it was very very bored. Hehehe. We did 2 dry runs and after that we went for lunch. My cough was (and is) so bad that I was coughing every one minute or so on that day. I even thought I've contacted H1N1 virus! :D After lunch was rehearsal without concert attire. Was quite interesting, cause I've got to listen to the seniors performing their group songs. The songs are damm nice! Did the rehearsal twice and went for dinner. After that, we changed into concert attire.

Mirror photos with section 3! Section 3 rocks! ;D Saw Gary Chew and he gave me sunflower! I don't care, i want rose next year! :D:D:D Went back to LT5 and wait for the performance to start. Took a photo with Jillian!

Me, Jillian, Pu Yuan
[Three of us are in section 3 and also in vj taekwondo! :D]

Me and Lynette (:

Fanghua, Pu Yuan, Lynette, Caitlyn, me! :D

Soon, it was 7.30pm. The syf people were already prepared on the stage already. J1s were waiting eagerly at the backstage. Didn't saw C13, but saw Estee and Edward! :D Haha. I knew nicholas will be late man. 7.40pm, concert started. Can't wait for C13 ppl anymore and I rushed back to the backstage. hahaha.

I like how greg and xiao wei started their opening speech. I think it was damm cool la! :D Alright, then the curtains were open. Oh my god, the audiences shouted like crazy! xD Supporters shouting the seniors' names etc. I thought it will be a very professional concert whereby noise level will be kept to the minimun! But the ambience is very warm with all that encouragements! Syf songs began playing. jeanette and I began to mimic the conductor and began doing the actions at the backstage! So fun! :D

Song ended. Curtain's closed. Me and Fanghua began walking in with the stand. Damm scary can. I'm first time performing in front of so manny people! =x And clarice kept on telling me to sway. haha! Curtain's finally opened. Oh my god, people began shouting other performers' names! And, I heard my name! MUAHAHAHA. Thanks a lot C13! But I don't know where you all are seating, so I just looked in front! ;D

Came back to the stage only during section 3 song. I was damm afraid of this song la. I'm still very unsure about uptown girl and I'm siting at the extreme right of the row. =/ Luckily the song is still quite well-done. Rock on section 3! :D Up Puyuan and I to the upper Gallery. Saw Gordon at the last row and went to find C13. Took peektures with C13 during intermission!

Went back to PT and prepare for the last few songs. And finally we played our last piece of music- YMCA.

Concert ended. With a huge round of applause. Never had I experienced such sense of satisfaction. The feeling of affirmation and encouragement. After so many months of practices, (even though I've missed some of the later parts of practices due to taekwondo), we had came this far and put in our most sincere performance. And at that instance we played the last note of YMCA, we have completed our goal. But, a hinge of sadness soon surfaced because that's the last time we were going to perform our songs. Maybe not the last, but together as a band.

I've enjoyed myself very much during the concert, as a performer and as an audience. And I hope those who went for vjc harmonia Band concert will find the concert as enjoyable as i felt. Harmonica is a nice instrument aye? :D Thanks again to C13, Gordon and Estee for supporting me in the concert! (:

Music is the art which is most nigh to tears and memory. ~Oscar Wilde-

Rock on Vjc Harmonica Band! (:

National Inter-JC Taekwondo Competition

2009-05-28T23:32:00.005+08:00

If we hold on together
Don't lose your way
With each passing day.
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start.
Live your story,
Faith, hope and glory,
Hold to the truth in your heart.

If we hold on together,
I know our dreams will never die.
Dreams see us through to forever,
where clouds roll by.
For you and I.

Judgement day today. Woke up in the morning still feeling a little feverish.
Had a high fever yesterday. Highest regstered temperature at 38.70 degree. I'm so afraid I might not be able to go for competition. Went for a cold bath twice. Ate dunno how many panadols, applied ice packs and slept with the fan operating at full blast. Morining temperature was still okay, at 37.4 degrees.

Morale was quite high in the morning (: Got onto the bus, reached regent sec, haven't even do much stretching and the white belts were called into the holding area. Was like talking to my competitor in front of me from Jjc how scared i was? Haha. Ended up him and the person behind me wished me good luck. Haha! Got onto the competition area. I swore those kicks were the highest, most precise and sharpest kicks I had ever excuted. But the score was damm disappointing. It's like 6.233/10. Second lowest in the male white belts. Actually, I'm disappointed not because I can't get into the semi-finals, because i think I've failed sir. He had spent quite a lot of energy and time in teaching the white belts and the other belts. and just before I went to execute my patterns, he told me I've got the power and I'll do fine. But in the end? I can still remember the look sir had after i finished my moves. The look of disappointment. I'm so damm disgusted by myself.

Till now, I still don't know where did i went wrong ): But I wouldn't let that failure affect me very much. After all, I've put in my best shot and after all that trainings, at least, I've got the chance to show off what I've learnt these few days in the competition arena. (:

Begun taking down scores for the other belts for the seniors so to know whether they can get into the semis and finals. Seniors are really really good! But I don't know why we just can't get into some of the semis and finals. Like we missed by one or two placings? That's so unlucky! ): And seeing so many of the seniors crying after their pattern really made me feel sad. Though I've started training like only last week, i can tell that the seniors trained very hard for this competition.

And after an intense and long fight, results are out.

Vj taekwondo got 4th overall!

I dare not claim any contribution, but it is still a good job done! :D
Though we've dropped 3 placings, but no matter what the outcome is, we trained hard and we've put in our earnest efforts! Seriously, this is the first time i felt so bonded in a cca, where we have trained hard together, supported each other and encouraged each other! And thanks to chrystal, jillian, the exco, jin ming, jas for all those sweet messages!

And, the sweetest reward one could get from the hard work we had put in, is to find out how much we had grown as an individual and as a team.

Rock on Vjtkd! We will clinch back the championship title next year. (:

Dinnered with tkd team after that. Had jts and treated the seniors with popyies (i don't know how spell leh =/) at changi airport. I'm so damm excited about T3 can. cuz i didn't got to see the beautiful "ceiling" of T3 the last time i went there (anyway this is the second time I've went there =x) . So grace and rao ting and I were taking the super nice lift and see the "scennery"! haha!

Trained home after that! :D

and,
I shall concentrate on my harmonica now. I shall remind myself to charge my camera tmr. Because yesterday I'm sick, so I didn't charge my camera, and so i didn't take lots of peektures today ):

Jovial

2009-05-24T22:25:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wonder what will be the present me if I'm not down with acne.
Damm it. My neck is beginning to grow pimples already, Which is like wth?

Taekwondo training with the individals at Changi Beach Club. Still very unsure about some moves =/ Worst still, muscles aches everywhere. My leg got cramped up by itself even without me exerting force on it for many times today. I shouldn't be getting myself injuired when competition is just 4 days away. ):

Harmonica rehearsal tomorrow. Was trying my luck just now by smsing Jie Ying whether I can skip it and go for tkd training instead. She didn't gave an exact answer, but its very obvious that she wants me to go, cause if not I won't know how to move on the stage. ;D Practiced my harmoc just now. Still a little unsure, but I'm sure it will be better. (:

Weiting, Jingkai, Shihui and Nicholas are going for harmoc concert! Clarence and Lucas are still considering. Gary says if C13 is going, he will go, so that means he is going as well. (: I think I will steal my camera from my mother and bring it on saturday so that I can take lots of pictures. Haha. Maybe I'll sneak out and take peektures with C13. hehe. At least, I'm wearing a suit. Look so damm cool can. ;D

Maybe, I shall bring it on Thursday as well. Can take pictures of them doing their pattern. (:

I'm so looking forward to the holidays (:

Happy :D

2009-05-23T21:14:00.002+08:00

Me is happy today (:

Thanks a lot to C13 for supporting vj's harmonica concert! (:
Called weiting just now to confirm with her if she'll be going for harmoc concert. hehe. And shun bian asked the rest of the C13 ppl there if they wantt to go. ;D (Though I still don't know who are the 4 people who are going), but really thanks a lot, cuz $10 isn't a small amount and harmoc isn't very popular either! ;D

Harmonica sectional in the morning. Even though I anyhow play "Uptown girl", SLs still commented that the J1s played the song well. Hahaha. Didn't practiced alot on the song though, cuz SLs were concentrating on the J2s. Bused to Pine's club for taekwondo training with Pu Yuan at 12.30. Didn't really used the mirrors there cause we think the seniors needed them more than us. Sir didn't teach us alot today also, cuz he is concentrating on the other belts instead. Was called to show sir the demonstration in front of sir and an ultra fierce female coach alone, after jamien, grace and puyuan did theirs together ): Damm scared.

Less than a week more to A div competition. =/

And yes. I'm changing a new blog skin!
Most probably after mid-years. Hehe. Cause I find my current blogskin too black. Very emo. So, I'm changing to another one. White in colour! :D

Okay. gtg. Tmr taekwondo training at Changi! ;D
And, I can't really study with all those busy preparations for concert and competition ongoing. ):